i know, i know
So I know that I wanted to update a couple days ago, but I just haven't had the motivation. To be honest, I don't really have it right now, but I'm just bored. Lately things have been so blah for me I feel. Well I guess I can't really say that. I've been having a lot of fun with colleen lately. I love that we hang out again, it really puts a big smile on my face because we always just laugh non-stop together, and thats what I need. I've been going out in Philly a lot more too. Like, Thursdays are basically Sisters nights, and I have to say, that I love it. Because not only do I get to be in philly, but I get to see Naomi and Jamie on a more regular basis. I just love those guys, and it always cheers me up. But I don't know. I still feel like I am being so useless. I've been trying really hard in school lately. I had my mid terms last week, which is weird because now this week everybody is being a hermit, while that was me last week. I got an 88 on one of them, which is o.k. I guess. I studied for like 9 hours though, which makes me sad about it.
I don't know why I feel that I have to be in a relationship to be happy. You would think that after being single for as long as I have, that I would have gotten used to it by now. But no. I still feel so incomplete. I think I just miss the feeling of butterflies. I miss telling someone goodnight, and texting them silly things. I feel like I cut and paste the same entry like once a month. I don't know. I guess I just give my hopes up about situations that always just end up falling through. But at the same time, I feel like I really don't know what I want. Like, I want a relationship, but I feel like I want a relationship based on my terms. I don't even know what those terms are. But I just don't want to end up in a dead end relationship again. Whatever. I feel like I have the relationship touch of death. No matter what I do, or who I'm with, I will probably always fuck it up.
I'm so excited for spring break. And there are 5 reasons why. Jess, Colleen, Naomi, Jamie, Britney. Like, I'll be working a little, but obviously the night life is going to be mucho beuno! I am excited. And this saturday is Jen's bday party. It's going to be ridick! I can't even wait. I really love it when I get to see the people who really know me. I always know how to have a good time when I am with them. Hopefully spring break will get me out of my funk! Too bad I have to go get ready for class :o(
Someone is waiting
someone who understands exactly how you feel
exactly how you feel..
someone is dreaming
someone is hoping just that this will be the day
that this will be the day..
that you take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..
maybe that someone's me
maybe it's meant to be
lovers, strangers
sometimes bombs fall quietly..
maybe it's chemistry
maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one
i hope that someone is me..
nobody's perfect
nobody's perfect no one really knows the truth
all we've got's a point of view..
and there's too many questions
there's too many questions and too many reasons not to try
there's too many reasons not to try..
but you should take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..
maybe that someone's me
maybe it's meant to be
lovers, strangers
sometimes bombs fall quietly..
maybe it's chemistry
maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one
i hope that someone is me..
where ya gonna go from here??
cause everything you need's out there
and you can have it if you dare
if you dare
there's someone somewhere..
I don't know why I feel that I have to be in a relationship to be happy. You would think that after being single for as long as I have, that I would have gotten used to it by now. But no. I still feel so incomplete. I think I just miss the feeling of butterflies. I miss telling someone goodnight, and texting them silly things. I feel like I cut and paste the same entry like once a month. I don't know. I guess I just give my hopes up about situations that always just end up falling through. But at the same time, I feel like I really don't know what I want. Like, I want a relationship, but I feel like I want a relationship based on my terms. I don't even know what those terms are. But I just don't want to end up in a dead end relationship again. Whatever. I feel like I have the relationship touch of death. No matter what I do, or who I'm with, I will probably always fuck it up.
I'm so excited for spring break. And there are 5 reasons why. Jess, Colleen, Naomi, Jamie, Britney. Like, I'll be working a little, but obviously the night life is going to be mucho beuno! I am excited. And this saturday is Jen's bday party. It's going to be ridick! I can't even wait. I really love it when I get to see the people who really know me. I always know how to have a good time when I am with them. Hopefully spring break will get me out of my funk! Too bad I have to go get ready for class :o(
Someone is waiting
someone who understands exactly how you feel
exactly how you feel..
someone is dreaming
someone is hoping just that this will be the day
that this will be the day..
that you take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..
maybe that someone's me
maybe it's meant to be
lovers, strangers
sometimes bombs fall quietly..
maybe it's chemistry
maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one
i hope that someone is me..
nobody's perfect
nobody's perfect no one really knows the truth
all we've got's a point of view..
and there's too many questions
there's too many questions and too many reasons not to try
there's too many reasons not to try..
but you should take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..
maybe that someone's me
maybe it's meant to be
lovers, strangers
sometimes bombs fall quietly..
maybe it's chemistry
maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one
i hope that someone is me..
where ya gonna go from here??
cause everything you need's out there
and you can have it if you dare
if you dare
there's someone somewhere..