well i am completely and utterly disappointed with tonight, my life kind of sucks.... and i am plagued with the inability to do anything about my situation it seems.

i envy everyone who is in an actual relationship, a relationship where both parties just work. Of course these relationships have their faults and fights, but both parties are more than willing to work through them. And they do so because, fundamentally they know that they belong with one another. And I envy these people. I wished that I could ( Read more... )

So, my day today was a complete let down..... I was hoping to be able to hang out with some friends of mine back home (aka fremont), but to no prevail. Instead, I waisted my one free day I am going to have for awhile (since school will be starting up next week and I work for the rest of this one). I didn't completely waist it, but I did feel semi ( Read more... )

Why is everyone around Manteca think i am Mexican? I am the whitest guy around here!!! On more than one occasion I have had people come up to me and speak spanish to me, as if my appearance indicated that i was spanish. I even had someone ask me if i was latin in some fashion while I was trying to purchase some Scotch, it was the guy opening the ( Read more... )

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why do you always get the best ideas while you are in the shower.... then when it comes to actually write/talk or what have ya, you can never make the same connections as you had made in the shower. i propose that we all have recording devices in our showers at all times to make sure we can't forget what the hell we said, or that we start adopting ( Read more... )

So I went to go see Babel yesterday and I have to say it was probably one of the best movies I have seen in awhile besides Brick which I also highly recommend. What was so interesting about Babel was that it took what Crash did in ideology and then expounded it in this very intense story line which is unleashed at the audience as the story ( Read more... )

I can't sleep, I keep thinking of what I shouldn't and I can't stop myself. I would put that in more poetic terms but I am out of words other then I am unbelievably dismayed. The same idea keeps running through my head and I can't stop it: Don't make someone as your priority when you are their option. This phrase as been running through my head all ( Read more... )

I just realized that I don't/ can't trust women... well at least the ones i like/get involved with. And that is disturbing to me.

Well I guess it was time to update my life since the last time I wrote in here, I have been in a consent go go go mode since school started and I am feeling like it will never end. I have soo much work that is not even funny. To make things more difficult is I got into another relationship even though I told myself not to.... what kind of ( Read more... )