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i envy everyone who is in an actual relationship, a relationship where both parties just work. Of course these relationships have their faults and fights, but both parties are more than willing to work through them. And they do so because, fundamentally they know that they belong with one another. And I envy these people. I wished that I could have something like that, that there was a person who I could just open up everything to, without any hesitation. Someone who understands me to the core of my being, but I think there is no one in this world who could ever accomplish this task. I don't even understand the things that I do, why would anyone else? As if I was doomed to be alone for the rest of my life, and I probably be content with being an island in this world. But I will forever be wondering what is on the other side of ocean, where everyone else is happy with their other half.