so i don't think i've updated in a while ( Read more... )

Happy 20th birthday tessssss! :)

this if fuckin rediculous. my mom is being such a bitch to me, like i did something wrong.. SORRY! last time i checked JEFF was the one that threw a party! he was the one that was loaded. HE was the one that was suppose to pick everything up, who got stuck with the job, oh big surprise, i did, as usual. my mom comes home and i'm still cleaning, ( Read more... )

so things with school actually are going good the past few days i think. i foudn out monday that i got my senior privileges [spelling] back. i have a 2.8 and my lowest grade is a 2.3, i'm think that's pretty good. my correspondence classes was a little at first since i couldn't figure out what i was suppose to turn in, i did find out last night and ( Read more... )

why can't life be painted in black in white? it can never be that fuckin easy.
ps. i have the hiccups.

so i'm really frustrated [spelling] rate now. and when i'm like this i always seem to write it in here instead of telling anyone.. it's weird. anyways i really suck at school. vacation's over and i haven't gone, and it really bugs me when i wake up at like 2 and realize how much of a loser i am.. but in the morning when i just think, 'i'm tired and ( Read more... )

alright so last saturday i told myself that i wouldn't drink for one month.. well i did tonight. but one of the big reasons why i didn't want to was the fact that i was getting completely [spelling] smashed and i just wasn't being.. well me. i like drinking, i like having fun. tonight when everyone else was drunk and i wasn't i felt weird, out of ( Read more... )

there's the warning. so if you don't want to read it scroll past hah ( Read more... )

so my dad calls tonight, tonight's his last night here. i didn't call back, or answer. jeremy called him back, they talked some. he gets off the phone and tells me that dad left $50 at his mom's for us. now i feel like shit, but i know i shouldn't. HE should've tried seeing me, i didn't really care about getting anything, it's really the thought ( Read more... )

so the only time i really write in here is to vent or bitch about something haha. oh well i will still do it. anyways. my dad and i aren't talking, i don't know if he realizes or not, but i could really care less. fuck you for not calling me when you got to town, it's not like i see you more than 2 times a year. we were having a huge dinner at the ( Read more... )