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so the only time i really write in here is to vent or bitch about something haha. oh well i will still do it. anyways. my dad and i aren't talking, i don't know if he realizes or not, but i could really care less. fuck you for not calling me when you got to town, it's not like i see you more than 2 times a year. we were having a huge dinner at the boiler room that i knew about but wasn't aware of the date we were doing it, he tells jeremy friday, [the day before we were suppose to be going to the boiler room] and tells jeremy to ask if i'm working. and he should know by now that i'm almost always working. so i was one of the only family member's [besides jeff who's in florida for the navy] that didn't make it. he's been here for about a week, has he called jeremy or i? nooope. jeremy called him both times when he went to visit him. not to sound selfish but, did he give me anything for my birthday? christmas? noo, even a card would've been wonderful. but you always manage to buy yourself things and continue your bad habits. there's more too it then i will say on here. but you prove over and over again that your kids aren't a huge part in your life. if i was a parent and i hadn't seen my kids in almost a year i'd make a little bit of an effort to see them, infact i think that would be the first place i'd end up. even worse, your mother is having a rough time and might not be here much longer, do you visit her first, no you went to your sisters where you probably drank the majority of the time. i don't even care if i talk to him. i didn't even really know him until i was 15 or 16, i'm glad he waited till i was old enough to take care of myself. bravo dad, you're a winner. unlike my brothers i see the kind of person you are and the fact that you haven't made an effort pushes me away from you more, not that you care or anything. i have plenty of wonderful people in my life that love me and show it, losing contact with you won't break my heart since i barely know you anyways. i know i'm not calling, but i'm upset at the fact that he couldn't have told me sooner about the dinner, or that he was in town i can't predict when you're hear. urr this is just making me more angry.