Life in school was a bit crazy this week. I'm not really sure why I felt I needed to, but I was getting a little bit uptight and worried over how they wanted me to handle trans stuff at school. I kinda realised that the last post was crap and that if I didn't actually have the freedom to confirm or deny, then I'd go nuts and kill myself ( Read more... )

One of the things I've been thinking about a lot recently is one of the consequences of the fact that gender and sex are not the same thing and do not have to be related. This is the fact that transsexual people do not have to start off having a gender that does not match their sex. Indeed, there should exist transsexuals who start off, in the ( Read more... )

Dear London

Thank you for letting us walk through your streets the other day. It was pretty awesome.

Lots of love, me

So yesterday was Pride. I'd never gone before and I had no idea what it would be like. Apparently it's been very different this year, because Pride ran out of money to stage its usual event, so instead of having a parade, ( Read more... )

The last few days have been extremely stressful, but pretty rewarding. I've spent the previous two days running like a headless chicken trying to rustle up some formal clothes sufficient for interviews and such things, then I wore them today to my teaching experience at a school in Essex ( Read more... )

One of the things I did in the Week of Doom was to start work on the Islington Sea Cadets website. When I was sick and at home, I worked on it some more. You can see it here ( Read more... )

I seem to be going through a phase where I'm solving things faster than I know how to express them. It's leaving me with a backlog of stuff that I don't know how to talk about, or how to express, and it's turning into a real struggle to just talk to other people ( Read more... )

Gender stuff seems to be going better. On Tuesday I went to the Trans London meet-up. This month they had a reading from a book called "There is no word for it", an arts project for transmen experiences based loosely on the idea of the Vagina Monologues. It was nice listening to experiences that were similar to, but detached from, my own. I was ( Read more... )

I feel that I'm getting a handle on the massive emotional turbulence of the past few months. I've been looking for a way to simply express what's been happening to me in that time but I didn't understand enough to even begin to do that. However, I think I've been talking and thinking it through enough that I have kept getting a better picture of ( Read more... )

I managed to reach a sort of equilibrium regarding gender stuff recently. I've not been overstressed for a while, although this doesn't appear to have ended my problems. In some ways, things are much worse, although they're moving in a positive direction ( Read more... )

I'm going to start with social stuff, since at the moment, I can't seem to talk to anyone about what I'm going through, even though I know it would be good for me, and this seems to be why. If I get this out, I might be better able to express myself and cope ( Read more... )