The after-Christmas period turned out to be a difficult one, but with some compensations ( Read more... )

Something I've been noticing about this recovery I'm going through is how drawn out it is. After the surgery, I was pretty much in pain, everything hurt and there was lots wrong with me so that I couldn't move very well. However, I noticed that I was bouncing back from it. I was ill, yes, and with that taken into account, I was doing OK ( Read more... )

I don't know what to make of things at the moment. It's been clear to me that, over the last year now, I've been really unhappy and miserable and I'm slowly working out that I'm doing the wrong things and that I need to try something else. At the same time, I've never felt so alive and vibrant, nor functioned so well for so long. I remember what ( Read more... )

Yesterday I visited Charring Cross hospital for my surgery pre-assessment ( Read more... )

I have a date for the surgery! It's on the 13th of October! Yey!

So, the Samaritans didn't accept me, which is not really surprising after everything. I have to admit, I feel happy and relieved not to be going forwards with it, even as I feel pretty angry about how I was treated. But, I can't really do anything about it, so time to move on ( Read more... )

At the moment, it feels like I have a lot on my mind and everything is cramming into it. It's been making my life a bit difficult in the sense that I'm finding it hard to talk to people about things in a social setting and everything crowds together wanting to come out. I don't particularly want to burden random people with my problems and it's a ( Read more... )

Life is... interesting. I'm still really not feeling very well or happy, but having gotten out the last post, I also feel, for the first time in a while, the glimmer of hope on the horizon and the fact that this is going to be the worst of it and the worst is probably over. Everything is going to get better from now ( Read more... )

This entry is going to be very painful, and probably not very nice, but one of the things that's been on my mind a lot is how to handle and make sense of my school days.

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OK, for a while I've known that I've had a retrospective diagnosis of Aspergers from the GIC. I've talked about it a little bit and my general feeling has been that, while it's great that I have this, it's really not helpful to me now. A huge part of my personality is tied up in my empathic and emotionally sensitive abilities. Abilities which, ( Read more... )