what the heck do i want to do with my...life? is that even a positive thought? i know what kind of life i want, i live it everyday. i am happy, so why do i have a constant need to want more out of my career choice? i guess because the goal is to work, but like it so much it doesnt feel like work. that sounds like an excellent equation! i want to ( Read more... )

wow it took me a moment to actually believe that i have not written on livejournal in over a year. february of 2012 was my last post. i wrote about me dropping out of school. well i am back in school now at least. been struggling trying to decide my major still. i cant even write about it because i seriously go back and forth every single day, damn ( Read more... )

dropped out of school. i dont know how i feel. i guess like a failure. but whatever. i will finish, i just realized how much i can not do online classes. i need to be in a classroom, feel inspired and motivated, almost forced to do the work. all i need to transfer to a university is two english classes and a math class. maybe ill wait till i move ( Read more... )

do we all sometime in our life sit and wonder what the point of our life is. what do we measure our happiness by? what do we measure our worth? is there a certain standard to live up to that makes life even worth living...i know it sounds depressing and cynial but ive just been going through thid weird phase in my life. just bills, money, job, ( Read more... )

keeping my inner peace seems near impossible some days, some weeks. when everything going on around me feels unsafe, there is not much stability i can turn to. only knowing that i have my brother and sister, and my closest friends, and my own person within is all i have, and i think all i really want to have to rely on. i love my job and i love ( Read more... )

i have never been this stressed out in my life during finals week. i feel so accomplished though. i know i worked so hard this semester and after taking a year off school i actually finished a real semester! after moving and starting a new job all in a new city i feel good about this. i like being able to feel proud.

even if we dont change our life, make any decisions, that is still a choice and a proof of our life being our own repsonsibility with no one else to blame. or so says jean paul sarte. i have moved and roamed, but i am making the choice to stay. i plan so much in my life or where i want to go next, i need to remember to enjoy the now ( Read more... )

i need to move again. am i making a habit out of this lifestlye? i think so, though nothing being taken for granted. it is never easy picking everything up and dropping all your baggage off in a new town or state. the places i visit are for me to try and figure out, somwhere i belong. i dont know if that makes sense or if thats how it should be. ( Read more... )

i have vanquished any former emotions about this stupid asshole from a year ago. my court case got dismissed and i never ever ever have to go to court again! this is such an amazing feeling. it took an entire year, more than a year actually, and it definitely hurt but was worth the fight. i am finally free ( Read more... )

life is kind of kicking my ass right now. i am so behind with my school work, and everytime i try and focus, some stupid boy named brian pops in my brain, and i cry. why? because i feel things so deeply and i fucking hate it. i was drinking for a few weeks, almost everyday, but i cut that shit out fast. so now i am doing handstand yoga once and a ( Read more... )