where have i been?
wow it took me a moment to actually believe that i have not written on livejournal in over a year. february of 2012 was my last post. i wrote about me dropping out of school. well i am back in school now at least. been struggling trying to decide my major still. i cant even write about it because i seriously go back and forth every single day, damn! so i am just going with it for now. finishing up my GE requirements and applying to cal state san marcos for fall of 2014.
i loved moving, traveling, and living in vegas. but moving back to oceanside was one of the best decisions i made all last year. i have been home for six months now! time just flew by. and nic and i are still so fresh, but it feels like it has been a long time. but in a good way. not like i am sick of him, but feels like a long time because we got so close, so fast. our connection is beyond comparison. it still feels fake whenever i think or say, "my boyfriend..." what a change in my life. for the better. he has opened me up to my life, who i am, to people, to love, to the world, my understanding of all of those.
one day will i wake up and realize it was all just a dream?
my creative writing class is really amazing. i am learning sooooo much and it excites me to be getting creative again, and practising technique. i havent written anything big yet, and i still question myself, and am not quite ready to have any read it but we are required to submit at least two pieces of work to the class for them critique. im excited about that because these people dont know me and will be honest. rip me apart!!! im excited. thats why i get confused what i want to major in. because i would love love to major in english. perhaps be a teacher? be a novelist? be a journalist? but i also have been growing a passion for nutrition in the recent years. but man oh man i tried science as my major twice before and went insane the first time. and dropped out. bahumbug. and then i debate about majoring in spanish because it would give me opportunites to travel and meeting so many great people from all these wonderful cultures. cant i just do it all? i could. but i am sick of working at a stupid job and being at a community college for five years. i am staying positive i just need to finish! and oush myself harder. no more taking semesters off.
i loved moving, traveling, and living in vegas. but moving back to oceanside was one of the best decisions i made all last year. i have been home for six months now! time just flew by. and nic and i are still so fresh, but it feels like it has been a long time. but in a good way. not like i am sick of him, but feels like a long time because we got so close, so fast. our connection is beyond comparison. it still feels fake whenever i think or say, "my boyfriend..." what a change in my life. for the better. he has opened me up to my life, who i am, to people, to love, to the world, my understanding of all of those.
one day will i wake up and realize it was all just a dream?
my creative writing class is really amazing. i am learning sooooo much and it excites me to be getting creative again, and practising technique. i havent written anything big yet, and i still question myself, and am not quite ready to have any read it but we are required to submit at least two pieces of work to the class for them critique. im excited about that because these people dont know me and will be honest. rip me apart!!! im excited. thats why i get confused what i want to major in. because i would love love to major in english. perhaps be a teacher? be a novelist? be a journalist? but i also have been growing a passion for nutrition in the recent years. but man oh man i tried science as my major twice before and went insane the first time. and dropped out. bahumbug. and then i debate about majoring in spanish because it would give me opportunites to travel and meeting so many great people from all these wonderful cultures. cant i just do it all? i could. but i am sick of working at a stupid job and being at a community college for five years. i am staying positive i just need to finish! and oush myself harder. no more taking semesters off.