so i havent been on here for so long that i forgot my password and had to reset it. haha. whatta loser. well my batteries low. i'll post unimportant updates about my life later. :-)

so i finally got my computer back. well not like i lost it or it was stolen or broken... just that i left it at my moms house... and i just recently decided to pick it up and bring it to Tao's, where i have been basically living for the past... 3 weeks or so. i got in a big blowout w/ my step dad @ the beginning of the month and i just up and left ( Read more... )

but nonetheless.... me and Tao are back together "officially" ... i say officially b/c... really we've been back together for the past few weeks now. i kinda blew up on him the other day... and said that he needs to freakin man up and admit that we're together.. no matter what we call it or try and cover up... what we're doing... is dating.. ok?! ( Read more... )

i really think i do. and i kno he feels the same way. i called in to work tonite so we could spend the day together... and it was SO worth it. i spent the whole day hangin out w/ him and Nev and we actually had A LOT of fun. i love her to death to. she's sucha great kid i cant get over it. AND he gave me the good news that Jenny is officially ( Read more... )

i find myself ridiculously happy right now. and im not quite sure why, but i like it. :-) I've finally decided that i don't care what people say or think about anything i do in my life. especially on the grounds of me and Tao. We are so happy right now just being what we are and not having to analyze it or label it or tell anyone what it is. We ( Read more... )

welp, me and tao finally had our talk tonight. and im SO glad. i feel like we're finally in a good place... where we can just be civil and be friends and forget about all that bullshit from the past. and just.... be. this time w/ no attachments, no expectations, and no confusions.

oh and no 3rd party intrusions!

im content :-)

i don't know who to believe anymore... about anything. i cant trust anyone. i feel like everyone always has all these alterior motives. and here's sweet innocent Bridget who just trusts everyone and wants to believe everything cuz i dont like to think that my "friends" would lie to me for no reason. but when people start fucking w/ my life and i ( Read more... )

welp, sunday was interesting. tao took me to Nevaeh's birthday party over Stephanie's(Nevs mothers) moms house. it actually went pretty well, considering. it was completely awkward tho. Stephanie (who i really get along with) was introducing me to her family as Jaison's g/f. she knows that we're not together, but she wants us to be.. sometimes as ( Read more... )

this weekend was terrible. i hate when i know that something bad is going to happen and i can't do anything about it, b/c you can only avoid things for SO long. Tao told me that he just wants to quit everything. not like kill himself quit but he says hes depressed all the time and he's stressed out and drained and just feels broken. and he doesnt ( Read more... )

so blahblah life has been pretty up and down.. well if i thought about it intensely it would mostly just be down prolly. things are working out really well w/ the whole Tao/Jenny situation. strangely well actually. i think most people would look on and be like... uhhh. u MUST be crazy to live w/ ur b/f and his ex-g/f. yup i am crazy... crazy for ( Read more... )