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so i finally got my computer back. well not like i lost it or it was stolen or broken... just that i left it at my moms house... and i just recently decided to pick it up and bring it to Tao's, where i have been basically living for the past... 3 weeks or so. i got in a big blowout w/ my step dad @ the beginning of the month and i just up and left and havent been back since, other than to see my mom and pick up clothes and such. i feel lost.. like i dont have a home. i have all my stuff spread across 3 different households. and i dont feel like any of them are my home. i dont think i've felt at home since i was about 18. funny how that happens.
I'm happy here. I am. and it's where i go when i say I'm coming "home" but still... something is missing. maybe just cuz all of my stuff isnt here yet. and i dont have my cat here either. and b/c i feel bad staying here cuz right now i cant afford to give him anything towards rent. and all i can offer is to help clean up and wash dishes and help w/ food and taking care of his daughter. none of which i mind doing. im glad to help in any way that i can, otherwise i would just feel completely useless.
i hope this new job i have lined up works out, cuz it would change everything for me, and i would have benefits and be able to quit one of the jobs i have now, which i hate. and i would be able to help tao out and pay off all my bills and other stupid debts. and save for trips to see my dad. i finally almost feel like i can see the light at the end of the tunnel... but its still SO far.. but im getting closer.
I'm happy here. I am. and it's where i go when i say I'm coming "home" but still... something is missing. maybe just cuz all of my stuff isnt here yet. and i dont have my cat here either. and b/c i feel bad staying here cuz right now i cant afford to give him anything towards rent. and all i can offer is to help clean up and wash dishes and help w/ food and taking care of his daughter. none of which i mind doing. im glad to help in any way that i can, otherwise i would just feel completely useless.
i hope this new job i have lined up works out, cuz it would change everything for me, and i would have benefits and be able to quit one of the jobs i have now, which i hate. and i would be able to help tao out and pay off all my bills and other stupid debts. and save for trips to see my dad. i finally almost feel like i can see the light at the end of the tunnel... but its still SO far.. but im getting closer.