so this random guy that gave me his number hung out with me and adam and a bunch of other people tonite at a karaoke bar...we sat...the rest of us talked, while he didn't. it was sooo awkward. i mean i didn't want to go on a date with the guy anyway because i was totally uncomfortable with the whole situation...but yeah thought i'd share that... ( Read more... )

i'm glad i finally heard from you. i was just worried because the other day you were online and i was on for like an hour but you never wrote me back to anything i said. i was very sad. i thought you were mad about the drama scene or something. good to know you're not. i hope you liked the card. i got 2 more but i wanted to give one to becky ( Read more... )

i don't think i want to date brad anymore...he wants WAY different things that i do and i don't want him to change just because of me. he just needs to find someone who likes the same things as he does. and i can just hear the resentment or...other word...shit. can't think of it. disappointment!! in his voice when i don't agree on something ( Read more... )

well whatever may happen in my life....we HAVE to do the swimming thing again lol. i'm almost thinking about it tonite. but i probably won't because supposedly becky and dan are thinking about doing something and i may be invited pending they don't go do something that requires my being 21...because i obviously can't be 21 lol. but it should be ( Read more... )

so i was sick as a dog ALLLLL day yesterday...i kept dry heaving and my throat was sooo sore and my head was pounding and i couldn't breathe cuz my nose was all congested and shit. i kept getting really hot and then really cold and then really hot and so on....it was terrible. i had a 102 fever. AHHH. but i feel a lot better today. my nose is ( Read more... )

i'm so tired of my life. i can't do this anymore. i need something phenomenal to happen that will change my outlook on life and love and revive my spirit that i once felt was unique and, well...spirited. i want to be happy again. i don't want to cry myself to sleep anymore. i don't want to be depressed anymore. i don't want to wish i wasn't ( Read more... )

so i dunno what the hell is going to happen now. becky met up with jason at the park to talk to him and he pretty much told her that he didn't think he could love her like that again because of how hurt he was before. but she is still stupidly thinking that he might be something to her. she's going to lose brian...and i'm going to kill her. ( Read more... )

i'm not so sure what to write about today. i finally got to get all my feelings out to my sis...you not becky lol. so i feel loads better. and i really wish we could hang out a lot more. it's the whole working thing i think that is interfering with it mostly. i would come over all the time if i didn't have to work so much to pay my damn bills ( Read more... )

you would not believe what was goin on all day today. i went to becky's because she asked me to come over 'for awhile'....well it turns out she was having some nervous breakdown because of this weekend which i still haven't gotten to tell you about because for some reason you aren't getting online or writing back or anything so i hope everything ( Read more... )