i hate life
i'm so tired of my life. i can't do this anymore. i need something phenomenal to happen that will change my outlook on life and love and revive my spirit that i once felt was unique and, well...spirited. i want to be happy again. i don't want to cry myself to sleep anymore. i don't want to be depressed anymore. i don't want to wish i wasn't alive anymore. i want to know i couldn't be happier. i want to know that someone loves me and always will. i want to be in someone's arms.
I know you're gone, I feel the pain.
I know you're gone, I've got no one left to blame for what I fear; the secrets I hide.
I'm sorry that we ever shared a life. Well I know, I know.
I know I was wrong, just please know what's right and know that I always cared, even when you lied. But I'll never forget the day you said that you held a piece of me inside of you...I'd rather it be dead. I know, I know.
Oh please god forgive me for the things that I've done.
I pray you take this pain from him and place it on the sun.
I only wanted the best for us, I never wanted this song.
I did all that I could do but everything went wrong.
It all went wrong. It all went wrong.
i'm gunna come over sometime this week if it's cool with you. maybe tuesday or thursday or something. it's your call. just let me know what you think so i can check my work schedules. wednesday i think i have shifts at both jobs so that'll be fantastic i'm sure. and you need to give me some feedback on all this updating i'm doing. this shit is impressive lol. let me know what you think of the 'above exerpt' lol. i'm rather fond of it myself. i just want to have another drunken fun night filled with movie watching and dancing and singing. it's the best. and going to bed at dawn. can't leave that out lol. and that means matt needs to get me another thing of vodka. i'll load up on the OJ if he gets that. but there will be no drinking it all again lol. unless me and you are the ones drinking it lol. we're so much fun drunk. we can call some of my male friends and be all lesbian with them and stuff lol. that always makes it a good time too lol. anywho. i'm not sure what else to say. aside from what i said all up in the beginning and stuff. but yeah i need some feedback especially on when to stay the night and stuff. but i suppose i will just have to talk to you later. i think maybe i'll listen to some more of jason's songs and then go watch a movie and try to forget about my life. i'm just glad you're here to listen when i need you. you could never imagine how wonderful it is for me to have a sister to talk to when i need help. a sister that doesn't like the same guys that i do that is lol. but i love you! i will talk to you later.
B
PS---in case you didn't notice...all my damn 'mood' cats are the same lol. it's funny i just noticed lol. moving on lol....
I know you're gone, I feel the pain.
I know you're gone, I've got no one left to blame for what I fear; the secrets I hide.
I'm sorry that we ever shared a life. Well I know, I know.
I know I was wrong, just please know what's right and know that I always cared, even when you lied. But I'll never forget the day you said that you held a piece of me inside of you...I'd rather it be dead. I know, I know.
Oh please god forgive me for the things that I've done.
I pray you take this pain from him and place it on the sun.
I only wanted the best for us, I never wanted this song.
I did all that I could do but everything went wrong.
It all went wrong. It all went wrong.
i'm gunna come over sometime this week if it's cool with you. maybe tuesday or thursday or something. it's your call. just let me know what you think so i can check my work schedules. wednesday i think i have shifts at both jobs so that'll be fantastic i'm sure. and you need to give me some feedback on all this updating i'm doing. this shit is impressive lol. let me know what you think of the 'above exerpt' lol. i'm rather fond of it myself. i just want to have another drunken fun night filled with movie watching and dancing and singing. it's the best. and going to bed at dawn. can't leave that out lol. and that means matt needs to get me another thing of vodka. i'll load up on the OJ if he gets that. but there will be no drinking it all again lol. unless me and you are the ones drinking it lol. we're so much fun drunk. we can call some of my male friends and be all lesbian with them and stuff lol. that always makes it a good time too lol. anywho. i'm not sure what else to say. aside from what i said all up in the beginning and stuff. but yeah i need some feedback especially on when to stay the night and stuff. but i suppose i will just have to talk to you later. i think maybe i'll listen to some more of jason's songs and then go watch a movie and try to forget about my life. i'm just glad you're here to listen when i need you. you could never imagine how wonderful it is for me to have a sister to talk to when i need help. a sister that doesn't like the same guys that i do that is lol. but i love you! i will talk to you later.
B
PS---in case you didn't notice...all my damn 'mood' cats are the same lol. it's funny i just noticed lol. moving on lol....