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Take Me Off The Bench
With the recent month off, There's been no shortage of activity, although most of it feels unproductive, pointless, and selfish. With less than a week till I resume where my classes left off, I'm wondering if I'll manage to fall back into the routine and flow of the Full Sail life. Realistically it's not a choice, it's either get moving, or fail. ( Read more... ) -
Shocker of The Year
Does shit really just work out randomly, without any rhyme or reason? For the past couple months I've been in a pretty miserable place, in this city, in this school, in this house, in this mind. I seriously thought I'd be having to deal with this shit for the next 7 months till graduation. But then it happened. I'd be more accepting if someone told ( Read more... ) -
Lately
I've been so unhappy and I don't know why. I think I hate this place. I still love my friends but...I really am having trouble articulating just what it is that's having me cry in the shower, sit in my car for nearly 30 minutes before wanting to go up into the apartment, and never have any motivation to do anything, just sit and sulk ( Read more... ) -
Findings In A Dark Room
Am I still too young to get the big picture, or is it all just a day to day temporary illusion held steady by reinforced mass marketed ideas. Get a good job, Find someone you ‘love’, adopt a facet of faith if only to get you by on the days you question waking up, and most importantly, pretend. And when you find yourself slipping from the pretty ( Read more... ) -
That Day You Began To Notice
What happened to me that I pretty much gave up on coming back to my love, my baby, my writing in times of need. Could've been my own cold war with words and our lack of mutual understanding when neither of us is ready to come to terms with how we miss treated each other. I miss the pen and the pad, the good and the bad, the done and will be's. What ( Read more... ) -
Reflection
What is it about mirrors that makes a person rethink everything about himself? You start off with the simple need to take a piss or strip down for a shower and you end up staring at yourself for hour felt minutes, reviving every thought, or rather question, that you sometimes push off because they feel to0 grand or too trivial. They're always the ( Read more... ) -
Life in America
I'm not entirely bored these days, it's just finding something to fill the gaps of nothingness tends to be frustrating. Either the events suck, places close to early, or the people lack personality (not to mention the boys, most gay or gay curious, however, tend to lack charm or any prospects of an actual meaningful relationship, therefore, ( Read more... ) -
Advisory in Orlando
I'm going on a sex strike till I find the right guy, it's final. -
Round 2 For The Weekend
So I’m still totally crushing on this Alex guy, he’s got me stuck in limbo on how strongly I feel towards him, but the thing that gets me is how nonchalant he is about the whole thing. He doesn’t pretend its not there yet he doesn’t push the ideas and moments to an overwhelming 24/7 irritation. That alone makes him that much more desirable. Finally ( Read more... )
