Life in America

[spitfire3]

I'm not entirely bored these days, it's just finding something to fill the gaps of nothingness tends to be frustrating. Either the events suck, places close to early, or the people lack personality (not to mention the boys, most gay or gay curious, however, tend to lack charm or any prospects of an actual meaningful relationship, therefore,

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[kayexneo]

Hopefully you know you aren't the only one alone in this boat. It's very interesting reading your writing to see how very parallel our minds run.

1. Your Full Sail = My Bank
2. If you do happen to find that guy who really does want a relationship, don't lose him, because you won't find many like that in Orlando. I'm so sick of looking for guys anymore I am just ready to let it go. Everyone just wants to fuck and then that's it, I hate it. Especially when you are someone like me who wants something real, not some friends with benefits bull shit.
3. Randomness isn't always bad, i gave up on planning things out a long time ago, nothing EVER works out like you planned; i hate being all about spontaneity but it seems to flow easier than actual plans!

And last, change will come. Two weeks ago I didn't know I was going to be applying for an apartment to move out, and now here I am. You just have to find motivation which in my case, nine times out of ten, is the problem!!

--Shaun O_o V

[agoraphobic_fit]

Ahhh. I hate that you're not entirely loving college. I hated my first two years when I was stuck in Tampa but once I transferred to FSU I LOVED those college years. It was a lot of aimless wandering & bouncing off of random people, trying to make things stick but it was fun. I feel like I was able to try creative things, travel, learn things, explore sex in general, and just...relax (while ironically under those constant deadlines). I don't know. I hope things will change for you there. It seems inevitable that they will, right?

[spitfire3]

I don't exactly hate my school, it's just at times it seems to bear as much pain as it does enjoyment. The people sometimes make me want to go nuts, while the actual work at hand can be extremely enjoyable, but if you find something you like, a month later the subject course is over and its off to a new one. So it's a bit of a struggle to really get into something and stick with it.

[agoraphobic_fit]

Are you sure Full Sail is the place for you then?

[spitfire3]

Definitely. With how fast it moves, I've learned a great deal of new techniques and job possibilities. I'm sure I've made it out to be a hellish working place but truth is i kind love the challenge, I just have momentary snippets of bitching and complaint.