Being a mother has it's ups and downs, but lately all I seem to feel are downs. If I'm not exhausted, or busting my ass while trying to heal, I'm getting a lot of attitude, and a lot taken out on me. And it is starting to make me feel nothing but resentment and unhappiness. Constantly getting snapped at is just getting to be too much considering ( Read more... )

I want to do everything the right way. At least the best way. My mother makes this completely impossible. I don't want to tell her the news in a fit of anger but she's getting me there. She knows I'm struggling. She knows I'm trying to find a job and most of the time I'm running around with my phone off because I have no money. Because I get ( Read more... )

It bothers me and at the same time it doesn't. I only realize that it bother's me because I want to tell my best friend's this huge news, and I turn around and realize that they aren't there ( Read more... )

Seems to always happen the best for movies, or just other people. I get to have it the complicated way. Considering the length of time involved since the beginning, it makes me said that there is still doubt on their side. The fact that I know I will be here for several months with all of this going on still. I sign a lease that I can't afford ( Read more... )

That pain is trying to work it's way back in. Most of it coming from extreme uncertainty. Before it was easier, if I wasn't getting what I deserved so much, I could just move on if I wanted to. But now it's going to be different. I won't be in the position for dating new people. So it's keep hoping that things will work out, or really plan to ( Read more... )

I see a hard road ahead of me, even if the previous roads weren't already hard enough. I find myself feeling incredibly alone right now. And stuck in a rut. I hate that love is enough for me. Apparently I seem to be the only one that believes that lately. I just see the future as all of the big battles, only having myself. Not even being ( Read more... )

It is amazing..the effect that not hearing I love you as a normal part of your day makes..I don't know if I can get past it all.

I noticed something yesterday. In the 9am-10pm road trip not too far away and back. I felt so much less stress that I normally have. I'd of loved to be able to relax and spend some time when we went through San Marcos. I couldn't stop talking about it, but it was because I loved it so much there. Yes, I had stress when I was there, but I didn' ( Read more... )

Cleaning, and thinking of completely changing up my room. Debating on how to keep it organized on here I guess ( Read more... )

I've been moody lately to say the least. One second I'm good, I'm great..I walk outside breathe in the fresh air, and let out a comforting sigh. Next I'm feeling almost anything on a rainbow of negative emotions. It's weird. Other times I'm just 'blah'. It's odd to say the least ( Read more... )