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I've been moody lately to say the least. One second I'm good, I'm great..I walk outside breathe in the fresh air, and let out a comforting sigh. Next I'm feeling almost anything on a rainbow of negative emotions. It's weird. Other times I'm just 'blah'. It's odd to say the least.
I went on a mini spending spree today. Just because I've been so responsible with my money the past several months, and while the money would go quick, it was mostly for me to pay bills. Here and there I would treat myself but it was when I had it extra. But, if it wasn't paying bills, it was me being supportive. Not complaining that I was supportive, that was just a part of where money went to. Sometimes it feels nice to be able to support others.
But today was just "I've been feeling in the dumps for a while, just get me out of here without anyone else's say in what I'm doing." Got myself a few shirts, amazing prices, but anyway, that's something nice. I've been feeling so insanely hideous lately. My clothes just don't fit me anymore. Probably one of the things I feel suits me the most is now completely ragged with holes everywhere, and besides that I can't wear it to many places without looking slightly trashy. Also, it's insanely hot. So the shirts now serve many purposes. Got a pair of cheap flip flops too.
Got myself a new electronic cigarette. Not really the one I wanted, but it was what was affordable. So it will do for now. Even got an e-liquid that's basically going to be like I'm vaporizing a Monster whenever I want. Awesome.
Tonight I'm feeling a little down. Here and there are a few flashes of things I've recently found upsetting but I am trying to put them out of my mind. Other things that have crossed my mind this evening include: "I wonder if my mom would get mad if I cover the entire back of my bedroom door in paint in the most artistic of ways.." "Gotta get this room clean tomorrow if that means spending the morning dumping everything in it in the hallway and starting over from scratch." Things like that. Nothing special.
Trying to think of things that would be considered self discovery. Besides covering a door in hundreds of colors of paint. I know I've been picking up ideas here and there about how to get started selling pastries and such. It's just going to take some start up funds. I think I'm going to spend a certain amount of time every day working on my future.
I dunno. I'm just gonna end this here tonight.
I went on a mini spending spree today. Just because I've been so responsible with my money the past several months, and while the money would go quick, it was mostly for me to pay bills. Here and there I would treat myself but it was when I had it extra. But, if it wasn't paying bills, it was me being supportive. Not complaining that I was supportive, that was just a part of where money went to. Sometimes it feels nice to be able to support others.
But today was just "I've been feeling in the dumps for a while, just get me out of here without anyone else's say in what I'm doing." Got myself a few shirts, amazing prices, but anyway, that's something nice. I've been feeling so insanely hideous lately. My clothes just don't fit me anymore. Probably one of the things I feel suits me the most is now completely ragged with holes everywhere, and besides that I can't wear it to many places without looking slightly trashy. Also, it's insanely hot. So the shirts now serve many purposes. Got a pair of cheap flip flops too.
Got myself a new electronic cigarette. Not really the one I wanted, but it was what was affordable. So it will do for now. Even got an e-liquid that's basically going to be like I'm vaporizing a Monster whenever I want. Awesome.
Tonight I'm feeling a little down. Here and there are a few flashes of things I've recently found upsetting but I am trying to put them out of my mind. Other things that have crossed my mind this evening include: "I wonder if my mom would get mad if I cover the entire back of my bedroom door in paint in the most artistic of ways.." "Gotta get this room clean tomorrow if that means spending the morning dumping everything in it in the hallway and starting over from scratch." Things like that. Nothing special.
Trying to think of things that would be considered self discovery. Besides covering a door in hundreds of colors of paint. I know I've been picking up ideas here and there about how to get started selling pastries and such. It's just going to take some start up funds. I think I'm going to spend a certain amount of time every day working on my future.
I dunno. I'm just gonna end this here tonight.