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Being a mother has it's ups and downs, but lately all I seem to feel are downs. If I'm not exhausted, or busting my ass while trying to heal, I'm getting a lot of attitude, and a lot taken out on me. And it is starting to make me feel nothing but resentment and unhappiness. Constantly getting snapped at is just getting to be too much considering the fact that I more than likely have postpardum depression. And absolutely no one to talk to about it. I'd have Gracie, but evidently she thinks that breaking a promise that seemed easy to keep to me is more important than our friendship.
And from having my toes constantly stepped on to the point that I'm not doing anything because I know I'll hear "Leave him be" "let him cry it out." And then all of a sudden it's my bad that I didn't do anything....what the hell?
The whole car thing has been an ordeal as well, stressing out all involved but it just doesn't seem to find a solution it keeps going and going to no end.
Then there is his phone going off virtually all hours of the night to the point that he puts it on vibrate..and talking to people I'd really rather not exist in hour lives..I just think that lines are being crossed way too much.
Money is stressful, so behind on bills that I am hoping getting back to work will be in enough time to fix it all.
I am starting to really not be sure if I want to spend my life feeling guilty for every tiny thing that goes wrong, and then feeling worse about everything else..where does this all get better?
And from having my toes constantly stepped on to the point that I'm not doing anything because I know I'll hear "Leave him be" "let him cry it out." And then all of a sudden it's my bad that I didn't do anything....what the hell?
The whole car thing has been an ordeal as well, stressing out all involved but it just doesn't seem to find a solution it keeps going and going to no end.
Then there is his phone going off virtually all hours of the night to the point that he puts it on vibrate..and talking to people I'd really rather not exist in hour lives..I just think that lines are being crossed way too much.
Money is stressful, so behind on bills that I am hoping getting back to work will be in enough time to fix it all.
I am starting to really not be sure if I want to spend my life feeling guilty for every tiny thing that goes wrong, and then feeling worse about everything else..where does this all get better?