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feel like saying something
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Connecting
Saturday was my first in-person event with the Authentic NC group (or any such group), called "Be Your Own Valentine" game night (about practicing self-love). I'm not sure how to characterize it. Let me just describe ( Read more... ) -
What would help me?
I've been encouraged to lean on other people for help. The question is, what would help ( Read more... ) -
It's a journey
Five weeks into TMS. I'm doing a little better, but not way better. I slept like 5 hours straight last night, and I think I got back to sleep for a little after that (it's hard to tell sometimes if I slept or just got lost in thought). The night before was kind of similar. I'm not waking up and having my mind immediately start racing with all the ( Read more... ) -
Purpose
When I lost my faith in Christianity after college, I also lost participation in the story that Christians believe to be a part of. The story that God created people and wants to commune with us and share eternity together, that the universe was created perfect, sin was introduced, and it will be perfect again once sin is purged. It's a pretty ( Read more... ) -
Almost four weeks of TMS
Tomorrow will be my 20th treatment, which makes four weeks of treatment (5 days a week). This is about when things are "supposed" to change. I'm nervous about it because I don't feel like things have changed yet ( Read more... ) -
A summary of my life with depression
I'm not sure when depression began; I think it was kind of a slow progression over years. I'm 41 years old and I've always been kind of a negative person, always looking for flaws in things and worrying about what could go wrong. I liked to think this made me a better engineer. Somewhere along the way it became a state of mind where I could only ( Read more... ) -
dropping in randomly
february already. i can hardly believe it's even 2013. aria will be three this month. sonata is almost crawling, would be walking if she could balance. a lot has happened since last i posted ( Read more... ) -
whither lj?
being a parent/husband takes it outta me. it's so rare i get time to myself, and for an introvert, that's hard ( Read more... ) -
In defense of free will
The debate over determinism vs. free will has been engaged by many people smarter than me for a very long time. I doubt I have much to add, other than my personal perspective and some relatively new discoveries from the 20th century.
These thoughts were brought about by this article: Your move: the maze of free willIt seems clear that in some ( Read more... )