it felt so good to be productive today in a different way than usual. i cleared out my room, and i mean really cleared out. there is nothing in here that i don't like, and all of the old notes and pictures and magazines and stuff i don't want to see all the time is neatly packed away under my bed. plus i moved everything around and got a nice ( Read more... )

let me tell you how much i love college ( Read more... )

i hate finals! im not really that stressed, ive kept a pretty good handle on my studying and all that but right now i just want to go to bed. i had a full plate of real food and an equally large plate of dessert, plus wine, and i just want to sleep ( Read more... )

break last week was kind of miserable... i got to see vreni and jill for the first time since the start of the year pretty much so that made it better but i was probably not all that fun to be around. idk what's wrong with me. i used to have myself together, i was on top of everything in high school, and i don't feel like i do right now. at all. ( Read more... )

i have been so happy lately, studying music has turned out to be much more fulfilling than i expected... being in college and being able to study full time is amazing. everything was (and still sort of is) unbelievably wonderful ( Read more... )

bahhh!! i love school. and life. and dancing. everything is just so good right now. school is busy but manageable, and everything in the class rooms has a point... like even if i don't actually want to do it i know why i have to and that makes it worthwhile. i actually like practicing now too, its really great. plus i just switched majors and its ( Read more... )

i started playing ultimate frisbee last night!! it was really fun, i can't wait to do it again. its exciting to be on a school "team" again and not have to be crazy competitive. plus there are some cute guys and lots of orchestra people... what more can i ask for ( Read more... )

i hate not being able to remember who i am, or what i am about. i forget what makes me feel most alive, and how to get that feeling, especially when i'm trying to introduce myself to new people and make friends. sometimes i can't stand how i am, i see people like me and i see myself as a reflection of people and i do not want to be that. when i see ( Read more... )

i hate having the pressure of going to parties all the time. i will probably drink while i'm here... not gonna lie. and i did before i got here, also not a lie. but the fact that everyone expects that you get smashed on friday AND saturday night, that if you don't go to one there is something wrong with you, disturbs me a bit. even the school ( Read more... )

first friday night on campus, not really sure what to do with myself. i don't have anything else planned this weekend which is *so weird ( Read more... )