Aggravations--- LIFE......why is it that I support the man I love for 2 and a half years and when he breaks my heart I end up with no money, a job I hate, and no him (in the way that I want him).  He gets a place to stay, a raise, and the freedom to do what he wants.  Life really isn't fair and I'm quite tired of that.  I do want to better myself ( Read more... )

As anyone can see, if you've read.....my life has always been a rollercoaster. Now it isn't any different. What is it about me that incites drama? It is like I feed off of it,, yet it upsets me immensely. Weird ( Read more... )

i hate you mike....i HATE that i love you. why do you do the things you do? WHY? Why did I even get started? Almost 6 months and a LOT of pain (a lot of fun and happiness, but a lot of pain too)......I've lived in 3 places since we've met......I've had the worst fights with my parents.....I almost lost music contacts.........I've postponed moving ( Read more... )

uggggh i hate life......just when things are going great, a bomb gets dropped....and what's worse is when the bomb is lingering in the air, refusing to let gravity take control and force it to the ground ( Read more... )

Well 4 months later and through all this strife, I am still with Mike. Oh boy has it been tough and still continues to be.......but I guess we have to have faith in how we feel about each other to make it work ( Read more... )

You Are Whiskey


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pray but i think things just might work out for us........

please pray that its not over. please pray that its not permanent. i don't want anyone else. i don't. i could have my pick of the litter but i don't want that. i want him.

Well, Mike actually did get really upset at the nasty voice mail. It hurt him, angered him, upset him. Luckily he got over it, but since then he's been sooo distant to everyone. Almost like he is depressed and in a rut. It hurts me so bad to see him this way. Last Tuesday night he was so sweet. He opened up to me, told me all kinds of stuff about ( Read more... )

Somebody please remind me that alcohol is NOT a part of my daily diet. Lastnight I could have fucked things up easily. I left a nasty voice message to Mike that I don't remember what I said in. I know I called and apologized a little while later, but still. He was/is very upset about it and I feel like shit because I didn't mean it. I don't even ( Read more... )