There are so many things that weigh heavily on my heart that I haven't spoken/thought of in depth for quite some time. I feel I owe it to several people to unleash this all. Where else could I possibly begin? I'm posting to two people tonight. The rest will come tomorrow at some point, or whenever the mood strikes me.

one: Hope
Why do you let this ( Read more... )

I moved into a new apartment on my own. Rent isn't going up, thankfully. I'll talk about it more when I'm not feeling so fragile.

It's nothing nobody did, it's just my brain being its stupid self. I feel ugly. Worthless. Battered. All these things there's no reason to feel. I was doing fine earlier watching the Olympics & being happy that Daisuke ( Read more... )

It's time to talk. I'm ready. I can't bring myself to get into little details because I've done so much talking with a few people that words fail me. Settle for a list, arranged in chronological order to the best of my memory.

( CURVEBALLS. )

Things I hate: the fact that the new bc pill I'm taking (LoestrinFE) has nearly killed my sex drive & caused me to have bad cramps on my period. This new moodswing I get from excessing hovering/caressing when I'm trying to focus or when I just want to relax. The fact that we're out of breakfast-type foods & I've resorted to eating Skittles, peanut ( Read more... )

Resolved feelings between Seth & I with a fight and a lot of discussion. There's still some complication that remains but those things are for another time whenever they resurface ( Read more... )

I didn't realise that you had a problem with me going away for the weekend.. I'm sorry if I didn't let you know early enough, but I could swear I told you earlier on last month.. and if I didn't, is there a protocol to how early to notify you? Maybe I just don't know where to draw the line between silence and chatter.
This is going to be one of ( Read more... )

Seriously, where on earth did the days go to? One moment I was running out to help Seth bring his stuff into the apartment, then I'm celebrating my 21st with my closest friends at home, then I saw The Unborn, and now it's Monday night.. Seth goes home tomorrow. D:

By the way, he gave me his old Saitek Eclipse II keyboard. It's freaking brilliant.

( Read more... )

Wow, I never expected so many of my LJ friends to wish me a good one! You guys rock hardcore, seriously. ^ ^ And thanks to everyone on Facebook and my girls at home for the well-wishes-- it was so sweet of you all to think of me.
The real party starts tomorrow.. I can't wait.
Tiramisu birthday cake is FREAKIN SWEET xD there were so many candles on it ( Read more... )

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close; don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

It's so great knowing the person who loves you loves you back. (:

I'd like to take a moment to tell you that BUFFALO TRIED TO KILL US.

When we tried to leave campus, there was a sheet of ice about 1/4" thick on my windshield @ @ it took about half an hour to get it off, and that should've been my sign to not leave on Friday. But of course, we did.

Shortly after we passed Exit 57 in separate cars, I spun off the ( Read more... )