That last post was written while not in the right state of mind. Call it a meltdown, a sensory overload, or manic freakout; it was fucking scary. I had no sense of time & wanted that mania to end so badly that I nearly knocked myself out. I felt like I was having an out of body experience. Actually, it feels like that's been the case for the last ( Read more... )

I stress myself out more than is probably necessary, & let anger overcome everything I do.
Ugh, I can't go 4 days without the gym again.. I revert back to a ball of anger & procrastination without that outlet. It's mainly money I freak over (worrying that moving won't work out & we'll be stuck in a new place we can't afford without Rich ( Read more... )

I'm not pretending to be politically motivated or passionate, cos I tend to stay out of political debates. Yes, politics affect everyone's lives regardless of how little care is given, but honestly? I think it's a mess. There are too many things that make me angry & not enough that makes me happy to want to discuss politics, because I come across ( Read more... )

I'm really fucking frustrated by how much effort it takes to update on my tablet. I write a long entry, and suddenly it navigates to my Userpics page without saving anything as a draft. I need a bluetooth keyboard, this shit is ridiculous. I use my tablet more often to save electricity & so I can lie down without hurting my back ( Read more... )

I'm ravenously hungry, but anything I try to eat makes me feel nauseous. Water makes me feel ill, milk doesn't sit well.. the only thing I can stomach drinking is the black cherry-strawberry iced tea I made yesterday. I'm trying beef/vegetable soup, & so far it's settling okay.

In other news, The Avengers was fucking awesome. We were in line around ( Read more... )

I am feeling everything at once, so I'll just settle for tired.

Yeah, that sounds spectacular right now.

Well, on top of everything that's been going on, my work schedule got switched around so that I can't make the trip out that I had planned on for Tuesday.. I showed up at 8am for work at Staples & they told me I was scheduled Tuesday-Thursday instead. Meaning I no longer have Wednesday completely off.  Since I was already awake & armed with coffee ( Read more... )

I've spent so much time trying to make kandi, in the hope I'll get good enough to eventually sell it. Just like a million other creative people out there.  The days need to be longer; I seem to spend so much time sleeping through them.

I'd like to take a moment to wish a very happy birthday to JJ. May it be filled with excitement~ Writing ( Read more... )

WHAT THE FUCK LIVEJOURNAL WHY DID YOU DESTROY MY FUCKING CON POST WITH ALL MY PHOTOS.

Argh. I'll post it when I'm more awake. Fuck you, LJ. This is why I never use Rich Text editor, but whenever I switched over to HTML it deleted everything I wanted to say.
Fuck.
You.

The next two weeks are going to drag the fuck on forever.