In the many moons since I've posted, things have been looking up..The kiddo is 1 now. I can't believe he's close to taking his first steps already! I went to his first birthday party, & part of me felt awkward being around such a big family after having never heard of me before.. But Eileen (Andrea's mom, the entire reason we met at all) was so ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here at the mental health center, waiting for my therapist to call me into her office. For the first time in 10 weeks, I'm bursting with things to talk about. I ache for perspective, yearn for freedom to be okay with my feelings instead of drowning in them.
Last night I tried to have sex to clear my head. Instead, all the tears I'd been ( Read more... )

I'm down to my last 130$ before payday, & they're in separate accounts. I've never been down that low since, uhm.. last summer? Maybe it's not dead broke, but it's enough for me to worry.
Jesse went to check his bank balance today, and found that there had been a strange 145$ withdrawal that put his account into overdraft. Right now, he's on the ( Read more... )

How's that for an uncreative title? But it's true. I was close to tears this morning, called Mum & went over to hang with her & Jon for a while to cheer myself up while Jesse was at work. Eventually, Jon went to work & Mum went to a Singles Mingle downtown, so I decided to stop by Target & take a look around.. I wasn't ready to go home yet. I didn' ( Read more... )

If you kill yourself, I will never forgive you for breaking my heart by leaving me like that. The thought of you doing that is just awful.

The mood cycling is back again. I go from feeling like I can take on the world to feeling like it's all too much at once. I either sleep for too long or not enough.
I finally, FINALLY made an appointment for Hot Pocket to be spayed: December 7th. This month is the last time she'll ever be in heat @_@ I have nearly 1,000$ saved up towards an ( Read more... )

Ugh, I am terrible at keeping this thing updated. It's something I'm bound to do more often once winter hits. Here, have a bulleted list:
-I have a second job at Staples as an EasyTech rep. I'm only being paid 25 cents more than I earn at Blockbuster, but it's an improvement. I get about 18 hours a week to start with because EasyTech has the most ( Read more... )

I have an interview with the head of Staples' tech department at 2pm tomorrow, just before work. Hopefully this means a second job, so we'll see how that goes! I'm nervous about it because I've never worked two simultaneous jobs before.. I definitely want to keep my job at Blockbuster; I love it way too much! And if what I hear is true, the pay at ( Read more... )

I made a trip down to Fredonia for a Labor Day party on Saturday. So. Much. Food. Holy shit. I barely slept due to daytime food comas & having to make it back to Rochester to open at work, but it was time well-spent. I drove out after I closed at work Friday night, & arrived wanting to pass out. Of course, we didn't right away. I have trouble ( Read more... )

I hope making kandi takes off as an additional source of income. It'd certainly fill the gaps while I hunt for a second job.
Speaking of which, a wonderful regular of mine (Cory) has put in a good word for me in the tech department of Staples. Apparently, they need tech advisors at entry level, & their staff is mainly male.. I'd like to get it, as ( Read more... )