I am looking back through my old journal entries, and am very disappointed in myself for how negative they all are!!! I truly believe I am changed person, in some good ways, and in some bad. My mom has taught me and put me in my place when I have complained about the things going on in my life. This whole year I have learned the truth, something I ( Read more... )

It's weird. I don't know if writing is a good thing or a bad thing. If you overthink sometimes you will get depressed. Alot of things have been happenening to me as a test it feels like. I feel like God is testing me to see if I will really say positive, as if he is pushing my limits. I don't know how much further I can go.

I feel like I have no ( Read more... )

Alot of things in life are not fair. It's not fair that pretty people get things handed down to them, while you have to work one thousand times as hard to make things work. Like for example, when I want to hang out with people usually I have to make the effort. But someone like Jackie doesn't even have to try (not purposely, but she is definitely ( Read more... )

Sooo here I am still not talking to my roommate Angela because of how much of a bitch she was to me. She seriously started talking shit to me for no apparent, or fair reason. And she made me look like a fool in front of her old friend (who she had previously talked shit about, mind you!), Aimee. Anyway, my point is that I am forcing myself not to ( Read more... )

Soooo lately I have been feeling a sense of feeling stronger and stronger. Each day is a new day, and since I am being more positive with life, regardless of the outcome, including death and rejection, hatred and cruelty, etc....I am trying to stay positive. I know bad things will happen, but they happen to everybody. What I need to focus on is how ( Read more... )

So today is my last day of spring break and I feel like a journal entry is necessary.

You know, if you keep talking about the problems you have, and keep dwelling.

I feel more calm, and yet I still want to go out there and be adventerous. Is this a balancing act on my part?

Sometimes I read my previous journal entries and I think, how did I ever get ( Read more... )

Right now my mind if in a lot of places. I feel like I've lost sense of who I am, but then again I have not really. I'm lacking something, but I do not know what it is. Then again, I feel like I know what I lack, but I am not taking the most effective initiative to fix this lack. I want to go for more balance in my life. I'm also trying to ( Read more... )

So I am basically moving on with my life with guys, and still trying to meet more quality guys instead of surround myself with just the quantity and the number on my list because that just gets old. I think sometimes that quality AND quantity are important, but at different times, you know what I mean ( Read more... )

Take me ( Read more... )

I currently have many contradticting, scary, and unbelieveable feelings. I feel like the more I am fitting in with people, the more I lose a sense of who I really am and what makes me feel like an individual. I have been surrounding myself with negative thoughts and feelings that I am now putting an end to. I feel up and down. I feel either ( Read more... )