Well, I guess I should update, althoguh it seems that LiveJournal has seen its time gone by. Too bad, I like LJ. :) Anyway, went to my first wedding on Sat since "the incident". I had a little melt down when I saw my cousin in her dress, but all was well after that. Until my dad danced with me. :) It was sweet, but bitter sweet at teh same ( Read more... )

It seems that one of the things people are saying about me is that if Randy decides that he has had enough playing around, and he wants to get back with me, that I will take him back. I can not believe that people are actually thinking that I would do this!! I mean, do I seem that weak?? What does it teach him if I take him back?? That when ( Read more... )

SO, I am wide awake. I worked 3-11 today and I am not tired. Weird. Anyway, still dealing with the whole Randy thing. I thoguht it would get easier, but it almost seems to be getting harder. I am so sick of him being teh topic of confersation all teh time. All anyone says when they see me is "Are you OK?" No, I am not ok. I might have well ( Read more... )

As the title suggests above, I am avoiding working on a project that is due tomorrow in class. it is actually an oral presentation and I have not even begun. I wanted to do this whole thing with pictures adn stuff, but there si no time. I had to work till 11 tonight, then I have to work tomorrow until 5. My class is at 6:15. Boo. This is the ( Read more... )

I felt for sure last night ( Read more... )

SO, went out for my firend Lauren's b-day on Friday night. Had an absolute blast. We rented a limo and went to the Grill on Main, and then Newport. We went to a bar who's name I can not remember. The Pelegro(?) or something like that. Then we were going to go to the Dockside b/c Lauren's fav cover band was there but they were charging $20 just ( Read more... )

Well, I bought my Ipod finally the other day. i am freaking out though, b/c I am so computer stupid that I feel like I am going to screw it all up. I know that it is practically idiot proof, but I get so nervous around new machinery. I need someone to come over and show me how to do everything. And be on 24 call in case I DO screw up. I already ( Read more... )

So, it has been two days. I got VERY drunk last night and only almost cried once, when I was talking to my friend Hillary about not being able to handle going to her bridal shower today. I REALLY wanted to go and be there for Hil, but I don't think I am strong enoguh quite yet to go to a party for someone who is actually getting married and ( Read more... )

Well. it is over. 4 years. Poof, gone, like it never existed. I keep hoping that I will wake up and it will all be a dream. How can you stop loving someone? Someone who you have cared about for most of your life? He told be he stopped loving me. God, that is the worst. Stopped loving me??? What the FUCK!!! I give him the best years of my ( Read more... )

Well, I never thoguht I would say this...but...I am going back to BBB. "Just when i thought I was out, they pull me back in!" I need a job in the worst way for the summer and BBB was the ONLY place that wanted me. Jason is there, so it should (hopefully) be better than it was. At elast there is a manager that knows what the hell he is doing ( Read more... )