Buzzing in my ear...
It seems that one of the things people are saying about me is that if Randy decides that he has had enough playing around, and he wants to get back with me, that I will take him back. I can not believe that people are actually thinking that I would do this!! I mean, do I seem that weak?? What does it teach him if I take him back?? That when things get rough and hard, that he can take off like that and there are no consequences?? I don't need that crap. No matter HOW much I love him, nothing is worth that aggravation. I know that I probably would have taken him back, in the begining of the fighting. I would have done anything to keep him with me. I mean, I used to worry sometimes what he would be like with our kids. I know he would have been fine once they were older, but I have never seen him around a baby except once, and he did not look at all comfortable. I don't know, I guess I will never know. I wanted him to be something that he never could be. A married family man. He is just not the type, even thoguh I tried my damnist to make him that way. I thoguht that he might be happy with me, adn he probably might have been. But I do not think, in hindsight, that it would have lasted long. It is better this way. Now I know what kind of a person he truley is. And I will avoid that type of person at all costs now. :) Onto the next victim!! Ha ha. :)So, I am tired. I am going to bed. :) Night all!!