I had fun yesterday but things just aren't the same. I think I'm forcing myself to be ready for this. I really did think I was.. I mean I wasn't lying.. just now.. idk. Things just aren't the same. I don't know if I'll ever be ready to come back.

Kurt scared me so much today. I just couldn't stop crying. It was the first time I saw him since we broke up at the 1st of the month. It was just hard on me. We talked things through and I hope to God I made the right choice. Maybe this will make both of us a little better. I think we both need this right now.

So Saturday night we danced on tables, laughed, got lap dances. I got to see all my friends in their costumes! Everyone was so cute.. the food was great. The tittie bar was amazing. We walked in and met Martin and he came and sat with us and showed us the ropes. I got titties smashed in my face, ass jiggled on me, a head up my skirt, and my boobs ( Read more... )

Well I hung out with Mike today. We went to Steak and Shake and talked for a while. It wasn't too bad. I got to see Twat for a little while. That was fun. Bryce and Monica are talking which doesn't suprise me. I hate it when a group talks to another group ( Read more... )

I'm always going to be compared to her ( Read more... )

Yeah so this weekend was pretty fun. Friday night I stayed at work and we all laughed and I was with Keisha and Annete.. it wasn't so bad. Saturday I went to work and Monica told Keisha how much she wanted me to be a manager. Idk I don't want to be but it's nice to know they think I can handle it. I came home, talked with my mom, and then got ( Read more... )

Yeah so contrary to popular thought... this isn't about another guy. This is about me. This is about my life and how it's going right now... and how I WANT it to go. He doesn't seem to think anything has changed with the two of us. He still feels the same way as he did 6 months ago. I cannot honestly say the same. I get bored with relationships too ( Read more... )

So I'm not sure what's going on in my head still. It's so hard to get shit straight when I have people telling me oppostite things in each ear. When I'm with Cassie, all the bad qualities about Monica seem to come out and when I'm with Mo, all the bad things about Cass come out. I feel like I'm trapped in the middle of something I used to love. Man ( Read more... )

So I'm still a little confused. I went through a little thing this weekend where I wasn't really sure what I wanted with this relationship. I talked to Kurt about it and things were okay for like 5 minutes and the rest of the time I just pretended. It's hard to explain. I sound like a bitch for saying it becasue I have something great going for me ( Read more... )

I had a good day. Thanks for my build a bear frog guy. He's cute :] Idk what's going on in my head. I'm such a basketcase.