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Yeah so contrary to popular thought... this isn't about another guy. This is about me. This is about my life and how it's going right now... and how I WANT it to go. He doesn't seem to think anything has changed with the two of us. He still feels the same way as he did 6 months ago. I cannot honestly say the same. I get bored with relationships too easily and I'm not exactly sure why. It's not that I think there is someone better out there because to tell you the truth.. I'm terrified that I'm doing the wrong thing by losing him. He did nothing wrong. He's been nothing but good to me and absolutely forgiving. This just isn't what I'm looking for right now. I am ABSOLUTELY terrified that he's going to find someone better than me. I don't want him to be with other girls. That kills me to think about. And I know that if I'm feeling this way... then I'm not really done with this relationship... well then what do I do? I'm unhappy in this... and I have been for weeks. I feel like I'm missing out on my life. I talk a lot of shit.. but I miss him already. I just know that if I give it a few days... things might get better. If they don't... we have problems. I just wish I could solve this without hurting anyone, including myself.
I don't think I'm going to be able to go to New York but I'd love to see Bryce. He's such a good guy. And Kile Kile Kile. I'll prolly hang out with him this weekend. I don't know. I like talking to him. He makes me laugh and what I really love is that he doesn't know me and I don't know him so it's nice to get away from my close friends once in a while and be with someone new. Maybe it's just me. My friends are starting to drive me nuts. Maybe its just all the stress I've been tryin to get through with schoolwork and boyfriend and colleges and money and trips and everything else.
I don't think I'm going to be able to go to New York but I'd love to see Bryce. He's such a good guy. And Kile Kile Kile. I'll prolly hang out with him this weekend. I don't know. I like talking to him. He makes me laugh and what I really love is that he doesn't know me and I don't know him so it's nice to get away from my close friends once in a while and be with someone new. Maybe it's just me. My friends are starting to drive me nuts. Maybe its just all the stress I've been tryin to get through with schoolwork and boyfriend and colleges and money and trips and everything else.