I thas been a few years since my last post and i thought they closed this account down! funny. ithink now is the time to wrap this up. Who gives a shit anyway!!

So it has been a while since i last posted but i recently realised i only write when i am confused about something. This means the longer between posts the smoother my life is. Or at least less confusing ( Read more... )

Plans go wrong sometimes, i guess that is the nature of plans. So for the first time in my life I am not planning. I can handle when things change or unexpected things occur so long as I haven't spent time and effort planning an alternative. I guess I am not very adaptable. So recently this change in attitude has worked for me. I have a good job ( Read more... )

The thought had occurred to me recently that I would like to get married one day, or even just seriously proposed to. I am not saying now or soon but one day, by somebody. Weird. I think it has something to do with a deep seated desire to be more legitimate than my mum. To do the right thing. This is particualy strange given that my moral values ( Read more... )

So having had the conversation in which love is confessed and then described as "different from the way I used to love", I can't helped but be relieved and happy and content. I am not the girl he used to love, I hope than I am nothing like her ( Read more... )

So here’s the thing, I officially don’t get boys. If someone tells me they are scared of being loved is it because they actually fear the hurt that results when that love is taken away? And if someone tells you to “settle down” is it a comment that means decide what you want from this relationship or just stop being so over the top or is it just ( Read more... )

Despite the title it's not what you think. neck pain has been pinging all day so two mercindol later the neck feels better and the mind strangly thoughful. I would like to change the direction my life is going. I sit in my house look around at my stuff and realise that while it is nice and all, I feel as though it lacks some meaning. This thought ( Read more... )

Alot of things can happen in sevety five weeks. We grow up, we change, we move forward (hopefully). we loose contact with some friends and make new ones. Relationships end and new ones begin. people are born, married, finished school and die. Love comes and goes. Family calls and then doesn't. All this stuff has happened to me in the last 75 weeks ( Read more... )

How. How do I deal with a friend dying. How do I learn to be Ok with my own company again. How do you go from loving one person and wanting to share your life them to loving another so completely that you would do anything to make them smile even if it means compromising on who I am and changing habits of a lifetime. Life can sometimes be so ( Read more... )

You know how it gets when you make this rtesolution to spend more time doing important stuff and less time stuffing around with things that don't matter. Well intimat and I have finally gotten into the swing of this concept and it is working out great. It has been over a month since my last entry and i really feel as if I have been blessed ( Read more... )