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[redteacher]

Plans go wrong sometimes, i guess that is the nature of plans. So for the first time in my life I am not planning. I can handle when things change or unexpected things occur so long as I haven't spent time and effort planning an alternative. I guess I am not very adaptable. So recently this change in attitude has worked for me. I have a good job that ends in six months time and although this is a worry for me i haven't really decided what I will do when my contract ends. Luckily my boss is going on leave and I am going to be replacing her for three of those six months, this means that at least for the next few months I will be really busy and making a bit of extra cash that might just help me on where ever I end up next.

Strangly this new philosophy is having unexpected consequences in my current relationship. I am avoiding talking about any kind of plans for the future, it is actually easy not to plan at the moment because I don't want to presume to much and lets face it if I don't plan stuff I won't be disappointed. But then i have this conversation, and I feel as if he wants me to plan and have goals for the future, even goals that don't include him. I struggle with this. How do I plan and have goals (that I invest my hopes and expectations in) that don't include the person I am with. How do I plan what i want to do with work and buying a house or travelling if i