Love Sucks Work Sucks I am so confused
So here’s the thing, I officially don’t get boys. If someone tells me they are scared of being loved is it because they actually fear the hurt that results when that love is taken away? And if someone tells you to “settle down” is it a comment that means decide what you want from this relationship or just stop being so over the top or is it just that I am too pushy. Grrrr! How on earth do I have a conversation that goes something like I love you, I want to be with you, lets get married have kids and grow old together, without sending the other person running. They might even feel the same at this point but not have the guts to say something until I say it first.
Crap.
Then there is work. Tracey is coming back part time, and they want me to stay on full time. But work really isn’t interesting to me at the moment. I don’t find it inspiring or meaningful or anything about it that is slightly motivational. Does that mean I should find something else to do with myself?
Now the perfect opportunity - my boss is going on 7months leave and they will be asking for expressions of interest. This sounds like fun this sounds like an opportunity I could sink my teeth into. But how on earth would I cope trying to manage people who have become my good friends.
I sick and tired of thinking about things this much. Maybe I should just put my hand up for the job and see what happens. Maybe I should just put my cards on the table with the boy and see what happens. I suppose the worst that could happen is that I would be in the same situation as I am now, except I wouldn’t have to worry as much knowing the answers to all the questions that are now plaguing me.
Crap.
Then there is work. Tracey is coming back part time, and they want me to stay on full time. But work really isn’t interesting to me at the moment. I don’t find it inspiring or meaningful or anything about it that is slightly motivational. Does that mean I should find something else to do with myself?
Now the perfect opportunity - my boss is going on 7months leave and they will be asking for expressions of interest. This sounds like fun this sounds like an opportunity I could sink my teeth into. But how on earth would I cope trying to manage people who have become my good friends.
I sick and tired of thinking about things this much. Maybe I should just put my hand up for the job and see what happens. Maybe I should just put my cards on the table with the boy and see what happens. I suppose the worst that could happen is that I would be in the same situation as I am now, except I wouldn’t have to worry as much knowing the answers to all the questions that are now plaguing me.