-
((((((:
Even though I ate all but one piece of an entire Veggie pizza with extra sauce from Papa Johns and it left me feeling all blah
I am overpowered by happiness
because
she said she loves me
and I love her too
and..Yeah
I'm just...suuuuuuuuuuper happy
We've been talking for hours today(:
It's been amazing
lalalalala<33333333 -
my stomach..it grumbles...oh yes!
I love this feeling ( Read more... ) -
Rant
I've been taking classes online. Yay...sorta....
It's much more harder than anyone can imagine. I'm falling behind and it making me feel super shitty. I can't stand this!
So...I have a very close friend. We've known each other for over 3 years and since She's the only super close friend to me I tell her alot. But now....I'm seeing a pattern...
In 8th ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I wanted to thank the ones who supported me in my last post ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I did what I felt like doing.
Not deep enough though
obviously...
Today I feel worse than ever...I was feeling better earlier....But someone ruined it
and I feel like it's official. I really can't handle everything anymore...
I can't handle people fucking with me, I can't handle loosing someone else, I can't handle all of this pain.
I can't handle ( Read more... ) -
*sigh*
I cut myself last night and a little bit today ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
The only things that have been giving me some comfort latley:
-The dark
-Penetrating my skin
-acoustic music
-Listening to the wind
-Laying on the ground stairing at the sky when it's overcast or at night.
-chilly air
-iced tea
-rain fall
Why can't these be things I can have or do when I please? well I know one that is... -
I'm a failure
I kept thinking and thinking and then I binged
I always do when my depression takes over
i cant stand myself
I dont want to do anything anymore
I hate fake smiling
I hate fake laughing
I hate fake everything
I wish i didn't have to live through the day
I wish I could just go away -
so yeah
I found out that the salads ive been eatting are around 85 cals. I didn't eat the dinner I planned one eatting, instead I had 3 veggie sushi rolls without seaweed in pomzu sauce. I don't know why I got full so fast but whatever, works for me ( Read more... ) -
Iiight yo...
I just had the Blackeyed peas with snaps and a veggie dog. That meal was suppose to be about 220-230 calories...idr
anyways. I know for a fact I had less than that because, the beans had mostly this sludgy stuff in the can which was squished beans. I drained as much as I could of it and when i was done there was more sluddy stuff so really the ( Read more... )