I'm watching Beatles' movies.
About to wak the dogs and then jog.
andd.....I feel hopeless and depressed.
Why? No clue.

Okay I am ..fucked ( Read more... )

Why is it that Chivos, white sangrias, and dry gin makes me...someone else? It's like I'm on one of those drugs where everything is happening around you and there is nothing you can do...except I am what's happening and I'm seeing everything I'm doing, feeling everything I'm doing...but I have no control...it's like I'm having a little visit in ( Read more... )

Now I really do know
she really doesnt want
me to have any friends.
she seriously wants
me to be alone with her
only.

what kind of mother does this?
why?
this incredibly stupid
this woman is driving me over the edge

The woman is perfected.
Her dead
Body wears the smile of accomplishment,
The illusion of a Greek necessity

Flows in the ( Read more... )

=fuck my mother fucking all ready fucked so called life ( Read more... )

I'm in my smearing mood again ( Read more... )

A friend of mines grandpa died ( Read more... )

I feel as though I should quit the shit I've been doing cold turkey but...It feels impossible and I even want more right now.
It's so stupid...waking up to not know what day it is or remember the last thing you did before you passed out.

I'm in a mood where I want to walk around in the night while listening to Manson.

i feel very lonely today.

My ring....that I've had for about a year...my favorite ring that was a bronze color with loads of gems in the shape of a flower that had a turquoise center that turned my finger and surrounding fingers green...my favorite ring ( Read more... )

My mother made me feel like shit ( Read more... )