Today I decided I was going to start being productive. I'm going to curl my sister's hair for school tomorrow, let her wear my clothes and take her to school in the morning (just to be a good sister), and I also rode my bike for an hour, so I feel very accomplished. Tomorrow I will get my community service done and go to my interview and hopefully ( Read more... )

I am sitting in my living room and the T.V. is very loud and I probably won't turn it down. I am alone with my brother because my parents went to a wedding and my sister is at a friend's house. Which is okay with me because I love my brother more than I love anyone or will ever love anything for the fact that he knows more than I or anyone else ( Read more... )

Well, my almost non-exsistant Livejournal friends, although most people would feel worthless as I sit here tapping away on the keyboard for maybe my second hour, I feel very bright. My fingernails are clean and that of course is nothing but exhilarating. My hair is washed and that's always a bonus. I look forward to having a nice, relaxing night ( Read more... )

After you have exhausted what there is in business, politics, conviviality, and so on - have found that none of these finally satisfy, or permanently wear - what remains? Nature remains.

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It's a cruel game you play in the dark when no one's watching. I think it's always win or lose with you, because I can't seem to find the in between. You'll get bored with change. You'll want something different. Something constant, and maybe even comforting. When you're bored, realize this, it was never boring looking into my eyes, it was never ( Read more... )

Not that the truth is vital information anymore, or that there is anyone out there that has pure and honest feelings of friendship, not just for me, but for anyone else, because this world is so sickly self-absorbed it's driving me virtually insane. Nonetheless, I'm still obligated to get the truth out of my mind and out through my finger tips so ( Read more... )

It all came together, and it was all so quick to fall apart. It was like sand between my fingers, and I was powerless to stop it. Although, I have these feelings, and this confusion that keeps me up when I could be sleeping away the pain, I have these bruises, and these dirty feet that make me feel like I have a little bit of time left to enjoy ( Read more... )

The only thing I ever have left to say anymore is, "It figures." No matter what my circumstance. I just had the fucking time of my life, with a bunch of girls I really care about, and still I find myself packing in a good three hours of sleep under my eyes, while listening to a sad song and wondering how I could have changed it. Still, I know, I ( Read more... )

I could look up some words in the dictionary and try to sound like more of an intellect. I could tell you about how I feel with words not even I understand, so you can only partly grasp how I really feel. Most of the time I don't even know what I want to say. Most of the time I feel like a fucking clone of everyone else. I feel predictable. What ( Read more... )