fucking boy problems. i am so fucking frustated with krzys right now, i dont know what to say to him! everytime i say, "oh yeah, thats like.........."i'm just always so wrong!!!! he doesn't respect my opinion anymore. seriously. when he brings something up and i put my 2 cents in, it just doesnt translate into anything. i am so angry. i honestly ( Read more... )

feel kinda bummed. kristine is leaving for vancouver tomorrow. wish i could go with her. but i have $20 to my name. 

Crappy start to the day. Morning sex - very good. That's not the crappy part. Krzys rolled his eyes at me last night... I'm not going into details 'coz that's over with. But I asked him if he could not roll his eyes at me. It comes off as disrespectful... right? So I thought I cleverly asked him not to do that anymore coz it bugs the shit out of me ( Read more... )

Getting angry and frustrated with krzys. i dont even want to talk about it. the plan is i take 4 shots of brandy and run a bath. 

Disappointed. Wanted to wake up early. Give Dexter his breakfast. grab my gym wear. work it out with Kris. have a nice coffee. pretty much have a "beautiful morning" Folgers morning without the Folgers. Though I can't say I've given Folgers a fair chance. Instead, I'm at home eating an extra large simple carb filled, meagrely packed-blueberry ( Read more... )

argh i feel like poop. i've been trying to lessen the amt of coffee i have during the day so i can just get a tiny buss but it ends up being way too much because i get jittery all day and feel dehydrated and my muscles get sore. i really enjoy coffee! but lately its just been crap feeling like crap. so im trying to fill my system with as much water ( Read more... )

heyyya. its sad how i mostly fill my journal with skin updates but really im in a way done with this journal - at least in a meaningful way. its full with entries about crap with tristan and my sad past. i may open another journal account for my "new" life with better, happier things :-) but for now, this journal will serve as a tracking system for ( Read more... )

je pense que je detestais ma vie. les choses sont terrible et je blesse que je peux juste disappaitre pour une anne quelque place mais ici. je parle a lounis et il installas dans un mois de maintenant a new jersey. il me demand si je se sera visiter la bas mais je ne pense pas c'est idee bonne parce que je sera stranger et c'est "out of my bubble ( Read more... )

I am never getting married.

i wish i knew that i'm not the only person who goes through this. i just have no one to relate to. it's too sunny. i feel like i should be walking around grabbing a coffee loving life. i need to talk to someone desperately.