skin update - getting there, again
heyyya. its sad how i mostly fill my journal with skin updates but really im in a way done with this journal - at least in a meaningful way. its full with entries about crap with tristan and my sad past. i may open another journal account for my "new" life with better, happier things :-) but for now, this journal will serve as a tracking system for my skin experiences. hooray for skin!
ew, weird..
anyway. it feels like the same old up and down story. things go well for awhile then go to shit and go up again. kinda like life! skin is recovering from real irritation and redness, not sure from who, where, how or what. which is annoying coz dont i do everything that im supposed to?! its gone down.
ive been drinking soy instead of dairy milk to keep the cystic acne down. but iunno, just had two bumps and one on its way, so im a bit confused about that. i'll keep it up for awhile to see how things go. i should also get back on zinc to see if that'llmake a difference. it sucks having leftover spots/hyper-pigmentation from acne coz now i have a cindy crawford beautymark thing going on, which i detest since i already have one on the opposite side of my face bahumbug!
so yeah, i put sunscreen on everyday but feel like i need to put on much more -idunno! i find a new freckle every so often so that tells me im not getting enough coverage. should i just embrace the sun and not fight it?! i love the sun and i love it on my skin dammit! but im just so paranoid about... somethin'.
i still find that i have to extract to get rid of sebum build up. i need to sanitize my makeup sponges and such - be more diligent about that. some days i just wish i could wear foundation. wearing powder is way drying most days. im confused about my skin type but i treat it as combination. i did have the oilies in the 30-degree weather we were getting so i got some oil blotters and should make sure i always have those on hand. I HATE THE OILIES!!
I've gotten lazy with the diy all natural masks but i should go back to it since it made a nice difference in my skin. especially with avocado and greek yogurt. that stuff is kinda god-sent! ie just been over at krzys so often that itd be weird if i had avocado on my face in front of my boyfriend. i wonder if he'd come up to my face and lick the avocado off - lol! no, i'd at least get an absurd stare first.