crying is hard work. it drains you of all liveable energy. i didnt even cry for that long. maybe for a good half hour. my throat and head swelled. mom was there. its been a long time since she's been there. its been a long time since i've let her be there. there's a potential foster dog coming over tomorrow. he is a border collie and akita mix. he ( Read more... )

I will be on Facebook fast for the next 2 months. I go on way too much to fill time that I need. If I worked instead of of wasting time on Facebook, it might add up to 1 hr a day which is significant. I will allow myself to go on Facebook once a week to check messages; that is all. Email I will check once a day. I will limit myself to Youtube to ( Read more... )

Life is... good, I think. 

Where do I start? I don't know... I'm falling apart. There's no such meaning anymore. I don't feel connected to anyone or anything. I feel alone. I did absolutely nothing today. I woke up at 2pm, missed class. I didn't want to do anything. Nothing. I hate life. It takes too much energy to get ready to leave the house. I hate putting makeup on. I ( Read more... )

I have the best boyfriend ever! 

For dinner today, I joined the Brunet family and met the Midsons who are Beth's family from Australia. There's 4 of them: Maddy, Shelby, who are sisters; Joanna and William, who are their parents. William is a nice man who wants to go to Africa as a nurse. Joanna is a high school math teacher. Shelby is going to Paris to learn French. Maddy just ( Read more... )

another one... just extracted quite a few clogs. im thinking that theyre probably from too much glycerin i added to my spritz. so i've cut to down to 1/4 of the amount (1/2 teaspoon). i do the following ( Read more... )

just started a new job at fairweather. my co-workers are ok. i work an 8 hr shift tomorrow. it'll be ok. not really looking forward to christmas like i want to be. dad is coming now, which i wish he wasnt. theres nothing great about seeing him. sometimes i think that i miss him but theres nothing to miss. if i "miss" something, i miss ever having a ( Read more... )

i have a feeling that i'll be updating more frequently in the next few weeks. i havent updated as much as i shouldve. sometimes i just think that journaling doesnt really do it for me anymore but i dont think thats necessarily right ( Read more... )

I am sleepy, tired, something.... It's the middle of December and it's dark now at 5:22. I hate this country. I need to live in a warm, mild climate where there is sun for 99.99% of the day.