have you ever felt like you're with someone who is just waiting for the next best thing? have you ever felt like your whole relationship is just the other person waiting for someone better to come along? i feel that way sometimes. i feel like i'm just filling in until she can find someone who will make her happier. you have this person with whom, ( Read more... )

i don't know where i'm going or how i'm going to pay for it, but i can't stay here.

i just got into boston. now i can breathe.

i hate you so badly it hurts. that's a lie. i love you so badly it hurts. i sincerely wish you weren't such an asshole posing as a best friend. aren't best friends supposed to be around when the other half is in need? isn't that how it works? best friends don't postpone each other until next tuesday. by then i won't need you anymore. by then the ( Read more... )

mother: are you being promiscuous ( Read more... )

it's an excellent night for crying. i think i may partake in the festivities.

there are so many things i wish i could say to you, but i know i cannot. i mean i could, but why would i want to jeopardize our friendship for my reckless emotions? it is hard enough for me to keep my feelings in check. what would i do if we could not even be friends? you are on of the few people who can make me happy. one of the few who can make ( Read more... )

im scared.

I sit here in the warm, dim gray between the toilet and the shower. Saline tears burn the deep cracks in my lips. What of my being so offends you? Why do my human errs lead to your rage? How do I fix myself to make you happy? What do I do ( Read more... )

in short: i care far too much about people who don't care half as much.