you don't know this--actually, you will most likely never know this--but i care about you more than any guy i know. i think about you more than anyone else. i worry about you more than anyone else. that's part of the reason that this is so hard for me. it goes beyond the fact that this dredges up all the thoughts i've worked so carefully to forget ( Read more... )

i need a fucking cigarette.

so i've got an uber crush. i really love how i get myself into this shit. really i do. i think that he's out of my league physically, but he seems interested so far. possibly i can overcome my feelings of him being too good looking for me? oooh the drama.

my life is not in my hands.

i don't understand why i feel so wrong for doing the right thing. i've never realized how many things there are that i dislike about myself. i suppose i've never seen them before. for the first time in my life, i honestly feel as if i need to change. it's difficult for me to stick to my guns, but for the first time in my life, i did. unfortunately ( Read more... )

most amazing conversation everrrr
Madison is piMp: in some people's eyes, i almost count as a man ( Read more... )

je ne sais pas pourquoi, mais ce n'est pas un bon anniversaire. ce n'est pas.

i love my friends. they make me so happy. i cannot even fathom living without them. ♥

i do not care. i simply do not care. perhaps i am just off to a bad start? i really don’t think that is it, actually. i do not think that is the case at all. i suppose i have just gotten to the point of reality. i have realized that high school is doing nothing for me. it is rather depressing, really, if one considers the amount of time and effort ( Read more... )

here's an essay for you kids. i like feedback. let me know. and family, yes, i know there may be some exaggerations. i was young. i'm going with what i remember.

Keith Wears Nathan’s Dress
Peering across the vast expanse of melded vinyl, I could not help but stare. Those perfect, white rows of carefully crafted plastic, those perfect white rows ( Read more... )