Being sick sucks like whoa. I always find that I am a lot more emotional when I am sick then I am regularly, and that is shitty considering I am already a big enough emofaggot. All I find myself doing is thinking about the things that can or could benefit me, things that I would and could change, things I would NOT change, things I wish I had, the ( Read more... )

For some reason, every once in a while something in my head triggers me to take a closer look at people, situations I'm in, whatever. Lately, I've been feeling like people have been playing me as easily as a puppet and it is really not cute. I have let people do this to me far too many times and I have finally had enough. It was alright for people ( Read more... )

There is nothing I can do to make anyone happy and nothing I can ever do to make myself happy. Life gets in my way, blocks me from experiencing the things I wish I could experience. It keeps me from the things I want so badly to just be able to call mine, which leads me to believe that maybe life just isn't for me, so why should I continue to ( Read more... )

This weekend was a heavy one for birthdays like woah, so this weekend was bound to be crazy, but I didn't expect Friday to be as crazy as it was haha. So, Nick and Georgette wanted to celebrate their birthdays at Kingdom so, because I love them very much, I decided I'd go. Obviously, my only worry was getting a new fake ID, but that was taken care ( Read more... )

My mind has been haunted by the most emotional of thoughts. I can't help but wonder when I'll be able to call him mine (or if I ever will) and I his, what it will feel like, how it will happen... There are just so many questions that I wish would or could be answered. These thoughts throw me off the edge and I am flailing, left to imagine what it ( Read more... )

Okay, so there are a few things to update on based on my weekly experiences:

( 11/02/04: Sugarcult/NFG/Greenday Show @ ACC )

No matter where we are, we can always look at the same night sky. It is just so fucking beautiful.

This week was pretty busy, to say the least. I had a biology midterm exam on Friday. I had originally planned to start studying on Tuesday and/or Wednesday night but that didn't happen because my computer went to hell and I was left without one for a couple days and couldn't print off some notes. So, I bought a new one and it cost me $1300 because ( Read more... )

I know my journal has documented a lot of what seems like an emotional roller coaster and has been slightly contradictory, but I am completely aware of this. A lot has been going on within my life for the past couple of weeks - some horrible times, and some good times, I admit. I've been confused, torn-apart and frayed at the seams, heart broken, ( Read more... )

Fuck!

( Until you're broken, you don't know what you're made of... )