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Starting at the beginning of August 2015 I began logging a short sentence as the "highlight of my day" or more realistically, whatever was the most memorable to me about the day at the end of it or the next morning when I wrote the sentence. At the end of the month I read through them and then took the most meaningful of the sentences and compiled ( Read more... )

Sunday, October 11th 2015
."You know how you're high on the susceptibility scale with food addiction?" Hibiscus asked me Sunday night, our last night together before he'd leave for a work-related trip overseas.
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"Yes," I whispered back. We were talking in hushed voices; Hibiscus's friends were visiting in the guest room on the other side of one thin ( Read more... )

Excerpt: "I'm so glad for Hibiscus's fetish with unrequited love," I said. "He will continue to hear so much about you, and witness so much of my love for you. I can not hide it. I can not mask how hurt I feel when you're growing and changing with someone who is not me."( Read more... )

The night before leaving I went to the nearby yoga study to the spirit-element dance led by Dancing Chef. I'd had a rough day working for White Whale, attempting to prepare four separate promotional e-mails to send out to White Whale's list. It was highly stressful work. There were too many things that could go wrong - from writing a promotion that ( Read more... )

Excerpt: Paladin can't even look at what he wants, because he is terrified that going after what he wants means leaving me. But I don't know that I can continue to be there for him when he uses me as an excuse to pile more guilt on himself.( Read more... )

Not too long after that I got a text from a number I didn't recognize. It said, "My cousin says you wanted to talk to me."
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There was only one person that could be from. September 10th I had written to Wolf's cousin on facebook:
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"Heyhey. I hate to make you feel like I'm just contacting you as a way of reaching Wolf, because you're a full, embodied ( Read more... )

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"Don't deny it. Feel how aroused you are. Admit it."
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"Please stop," she says, even as she feels herself becoming aroused.( Read more... )

"You were a powerful presence in my dreams last night. You seemed overwhelmed, tired, and in a major need of a break. You were carrying a lot of tension in your legs and butt. I think in the dream I tried to take on your fatigue for you, because I suddenly became as fatigued as you seemed to be in the dream."
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"Whoa.... Oh my god. That's so ( Read more... )