I'm scared of losing something I don't have? Ugh, what's wrong with me. I can't ever remember having a feeling quite like this. It's really abnormal. Maybe I've become too open with myself. Or maybe this is just what being vunerable is like. Come to think of it, that's more likely the case, because I generally avoid ever exposing my weaknesses, but ( Read more... )

Life is... perplexing. I've been self-analytical lately. Just looking at how I react to things but more importantly WHY I react to them. A lot of it is family related or maybe just people related. How I've been treated in the past and how that has come to make me associate certain actions with certain feelings. It's kind of odd.. I'm my own ( Read more... )

Life sucks.

I'm done.

So the title sums it up.. We have exactly one week until school starts again. In a way, I guess it's a little scary, considering this is the last year I will see all my friends and the last year I'll remain in this shit town. Then again, that makes it all the more exciting ( Read more... )

Ha ha, oh man, I really had to hold myself back today. So I went to see Talladega Nights with Emily and Kara (an ok movie, not super great) and I saw bitchface there.. Lol, I wish it wasn't the place that I work at, otherwise, I wouldn't have merely ignored him. That fagface is going to a church now because of a girl? Yeah, someone is a true ( Read more... )

A lot to update on I suppose ( Read more... )

Apparently, everyone is upset Myspace is down. I'm not. Such a horrible site. I STILL am ashamed to have one. One of the most popular sites on the internet, yet it's always extremely slow or just isn't running at all (and I use Firefox, thanks for the stupid suggestion Tom). Really, it's a nasty trend. I can't go a day at work or school without ( Read more... )

So, life has been good recently. At least to the point where even I see complaining as essentially useless. Yes, work is a hassle, yes, idiots have been trying to bring me down, but I remain unaffected ( Read more... )

So yeah.. Things are a million times better than my last post. I found out some things about her that just really weren't the truth and somehow, that just made everything go away so much easier. Once you lie to me or cheat on me, it suddenly becomes much easier to get over that person, probably because I just despise who they are. But yeah.. I had ( Read more... )

I did it again. I didn't think I was that stupid to repeat the same mistake, but I did. Just because I wasn't patient enough again, I just pushed and pushed.. Until that person was no longer around to push away. I thought maybe growing older would have helped me make the right decision.. It really did seem like a second chance of sorts, but I threw ( Read more... )