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I'm scared of losing something I don't have? Ugh, what's wrong with me. I can't ever remember having a feeling quite like this. It's really abnormal. Maybe I've become too open with myself. Or maybe this is just what being vunerable is like. Come to think of it, that's more likely the case, because I generally avoid ever exposing my weaknesses, but they are plain as day right now.
A few more factors have been thrown into the mix. It doesn't change anything, but it worries me more. I don't really have any solid relationships to base much off of (longest being 3 months, and I was being screwed in that one), so it makes it harder, because I generally don't know what is a good sign and what isn't.
Everything is just so weird lately. I take college entrance exams on the 19th. If I get accepted (high chance), then I go to Seattle. I leave this place, my hometown, for a place I have never been to, with no one I know. It's frightful but exciting at the same time. I'll begin MY life.
So many risks I'm taking right now. Are they worth it? I can only continue to take them and convince myself that they are.
A few more factors have been thrown into the mix. It doesn't change anything, but it worries me more. I don't really have any solid relationships to base much off of (longest being 3 months, and I was being screwed in that one), so it makes it harder, because I generally don't know what is a good sign and what isn't.
Everything is just so weird lately. I take college entrance exams on the 19th. If I get accepted (high chance), then I go to Seattle. I leave this place, my hometown, for a place I have never been to, with no one I know. It's frightful but exciting at the same time. I'll begin MY life.
So many risks I'm taking right now. Are they worth it? I can only continue to take them and convince myself that they are.