Jul 19, 2006 12:26
So yeah.. Things are a million times better than my last post. I found out some things about her that just really weren't the truth and somehow, that just made everything go away so much easier. Once you lie to me or cheat on me, it suddenly becomes much easier to get over that person, probably because I just despise who they are. But yeah.. I had someone to console me through it all.. and now I have become quite the happy camper.
It's just crazy how surprises can actually be good for a change. Also crazy how you can see someone nearly everyday and nothing comes of it... then one day, something just clicks and everything falls into place, like it had already existed years before when it really hadn't.
Even so, I constantly appreciate my friends more and more on a daily basis. It's just amazing how long I've known some of them and been able to keep them as friends. Stephen since kindergarten, Will since 2nd grade, Steven since 5th. We all have gone down our separate paths, have all shared our own personal hells, yet we remain friends.
I just remember around a year ago when I had the feeling no one wanted to hang out with me and that sort of crap.. It obviously wasn't true, but I guess some of these recent traumatic opened my eyes to that. I have a much easier time letting people in, telling them what's going on with my life, not leaving them in the dark. I wanted people to rely on me, but I was forgetting they might like to have that same wanted feeling.
I finally have all the pieces in my life AND the right attitude to go along with it all. For once, El Paso does not seem like such a hellish place.
P.S. I'm even getting along great with my family for a change. Possibly invoked by my slight change of attitude?