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i've seemed to have forgotten
I've seemed to have forgotten about this corner of my life...so many years ago.
Shake the cobwebs off the memories of that old loft apartment- choas, anger, sorrow, and dysfunction.
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Things have changed. -
years in review.
You know that feeling you get when you wait for someone to step off the plane and walk down that long aisle to the baggage claim area? You search the crowd to make eye contact with a familiar face while your insides perform tricks that rival that of cirque de soliel performers ( Read more... ) -
once more to the lake...
sometimes i wonder who I'll be if I have a child. What I'll pass on. What I'll say to them when they are crying. What to yell at them when I am mad ( Read more... ) -
nothing to do...
but wait for shaun to come in town.
scary.
but a good scary. -
dust has settled...
So my best friends and I have made up which has really made me happy cause without them not only am I a total loser, but that would break my heart much harder than any silly boy. yes, boy. David's not a man in my eyes...he's a coward who spread lies and rumors to our friends about our relationship...or he lied to my face which makes it even harder ( Read more... ) -
pissed off.
So- when people show their true colors all at the same time...things can get out of hand. I have lost a boyfriend (well, 200lbs...) and two best friends because they think that ignoring me is really stickin' it to me since i "vanished ( Read more... ) -
i guess...i wasn't happy
and neither was he because who's happy with someone who's always mad because you're incapable of being a fucking decent person and boyfriend ( Read more... ) -
works sucks. i know.
so i worked a double shift today...which went alright as far as double shifts in resturants go I suppose. made some more cash for a potential move into a new apt. building so that's always good. didn't eat the fries that sat on the counter for a while or anything really for that matter...go me. i have it in my head that i must be a super twig by ( Read more... ) -
*cause i won't stop holding on*
I feel like I don't know how to "be" right now. I feel like pretending that nothing happened will make it worse and talking about it too much will destroy everything. Maybe in my head, and in my heart, I need to gain confidence and strength. Why am I so afraid? I mean, I think I know the answer to that is because the past has not been so sweet. But ( Read more... ) -
and by the way...
I ended up landing a layout design job for LSU health sciences center.
yay