dust has settled...
So my best friends and I have made up which has really made me happy cause without them not only am I a total loser, but that would break my heart much harder than any silly boy. yes, boy. David's not a man in my eyes...he's a coward who spread lies and rumors to our friends about our relationship...or he lied to my face which makes it even harder for me to stomach. But I'm proud that this whole time I haven't hurt myself (except for skipping a few meals and not sleeping, but hey, I'm only human).
Is it awful for me to say that I hate david now? It was the lying, not so much of the "I'm going to act as if you're not in the room" attitude that gets me. How can you look someone in the eyes and pretend? What kind of a person can do that....even "he" never lied to me- "he" was always honest about where he was with me and where it was going....he never once made me think otherwise or used me for rides to work or anything like that. It just didn't seem to work out--- timing was off, our lives were separate...but I don't hate "him" at all...I'm very much at peace with "him" after these last few months.
Occupying my time these days has been looking for a new car since mine died the other day, studying for finals, working on the newsletter (though not as much as I should be...) shopping (wee!) and getting my hair done. Oh and talking to Shaun...who is...amazing at the very least. He's been a great friend (can't help majorly flirting with him 24-7 though since he's adorable and such a sweetheart). He's comming to visit in June. *sigh*
I still have to meet with david on a few things...I can't hardly wait! (oh god). I'm postponing this meeting as long as I have to just to ensure that I don't start crying or yelling or some other meredith thing that I do when I get upset...I dunno...throw a drink at him? It could happen...
Is it awful for me to say that I hate david now? It was the lying, not so much of the "I'm going to act as if you're not in the room" attitude that gets me. How can you look someone in the eyes and pretend? What kind of a person can do that....even "he" never lied to me- "he" was always honest about where he was with me and where it was going....he never once made me think otherwise or used me for rides to work or anything like that. It just didn't seem to work out--- timing was off, our lives were separate...but I don't hate "him" at all...I'm very much at peace with "him" after these last few months.
Occupying my time these days has been looking for a new car since mine died the other day, studying for finals, working on the newsletter (though not as much as I should be...) shopping (wee!) and getting my hair done. Oh and talking to Shaun...who is...amazing at the very least. He's been a great friend (can't help majorly flirting with him 24-7 though since he's adorable and such a sweetheart). He's comming to visit in June. *sigh*
I still have to meet with david on a few things...I can't hardly wait! (oh god). I'm postponing this meeting as long as I have to just to ensure that I don't start crying or yelling or some other meredith thing that I do when I get upset...I dunno...throw a drink at him? It could happen...