once more to the lake...

[nomme_de_plume]

sometimes i wonder who I'll be if I have a child. What I'll pass on. What I'll say to them when they are crying. What to yell at them when I am mad.

I wonder if I'll fail my child as a parent.

I wonder if I'll ever leave them.

I'm wondering all this because as a child of parents who have said and done unspeakable things to me, I wonder if I'll fuck up a life.

oh and by the by...having shaun in town didn't go too well at all.