so those dreams have been getting more and more intense, but i finally found what i was searching for, or rather he found me. he came the other night while i was checkin the house, and that familiar fear came so i looked around and saw nothing, until i looked out my window and there he was. staring. straight at me from the street, no face to be ( Read more... )

"reality dawns and ends the world of make believe"

Reminders everywhere i look, it's like the present past won't fade. Can't say i blame it, i don't really want it to. You know those few moments in life that you can look back on and say that they were worth living, because you took advantage of the moment? Well i see them every time i close my eyes ( Read more... )

i don't think it's quite hit me yet that i left mike for good cuz i'm not flipping out yet, i don't even feel anything about it. there's part of me that's fully expecting this to last until this afternoon or tomorrow then have everything go back to normal between us, but i know that i can't, my heart is telling me not to, my mind is what's going ( Read more... )

i wouldnt exactly call it beautiful, but a gift at the very least and at times a blessing ( Read more... )

the sky weeps tonight. our blood is wiped away.. i am waiting for you ( Read more... )

don't like the name zoey.
maybe i'll stick with kayleigh.

but yea.
no zoey.

...i hate naming girls..

what a reality. i've put myself through so much shit the past 2 days with having to live in retrospect to get this song down, my mind is just blah, screaming for me to release it, to allow the past to once again be locked somewhere deep within where no shadows can appear. the only thing keeping me sane right now is the thought that tonight i get a ( Read more... )

this tummy is getting ..annoying. i'm so used to my body being a certain way and when it even feels like it might get outta line i fix it and there's no fixing this. the inevitable realities of pregnancy. and not only that, i sleep on my tummy or on my right side.. not anymore. i'm supposed to be layin on my left tho my body is adjusting to that, ( Read more... )

wow. this has been a while hasn't it ( Read more... )

Vetis The Wicked: ill keep watch ( Read more... )