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not sure
So much for updating more often, but it is what it is. Things have been pretty hard for me lately, I can't lie. I've been pretty depressed living here in Worcester--I just feel very cut off from my "real life." My old friends are so distant, my family is so distant, and I've just felt very alone and sort of trapped in a rut. Nate has been feeling ( Read more... ) -
this apartment is great, and it's mine!
Our apartment is getting better literally all the time. I've been out of work for about a week now since my ear surgery, and Nate had yesterday and today off, so we used this time to do the final things that we've been waiting to do since we moved in! This includes: getting a bookcase and setting it up, getting nails and hanging up the rest of the ( Read more... ) -
obligatory new year update?
may your past be the sound
of your feet upon the ground,
carry on, carry on
Time and time and time, it never stops coming at you, but I think more often than not, people feel static, permanent, "status quo." It's like...you never think you'll be out of high school until you're at graduation. And you never think you'll be out of college, until suddenly ( Read more... ) -
these days are ours
Life has a crazy way of going on and on, even when you feel like things are so intense, so final, so real. The shooting at Newtown Elementary School has really affected me, as it has almost everyone in our country. It's just so insane, one of those things that I keep thinking about, yet still cannot wrap my head around. I keep thinking about the ( Read more... ) -
things change and they stay the same
DAMN IT EVERYTHING I JUST TYPED GOT ERASED, URRRRRGH ( Read more... ) -
make a home from rented house
I've been so bad about updating. Things change so fast and sometimes it's hard to keep up; writing it all down feels like a burden. Nate sharing his own journal entry with me reminded me that journaling doesn't have to be a burden, it can be a way to just think and be and feel connected to your life ( Read more... ) -
things i thought about on my hike today
1. Do I not want a "real job" because I truly have no desire for it, or because I am scared that I am unqualified for any job that requires more thinking than the recipe of a drink order? I think about Carolyn, talking about "furthering her career at IBM" and it just makes my stomach turn to think about that kind of a future for myself... I am ( Read more... ) -
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Wow, I haven't updated in so long! I've been working at Starbucks for close to a month now, and it's going alright. I'm still struggling with making drinks, but everything else is good and I like most of the people I work with. Other than that, things have been pretty boring, living at home, just chillin, but there are two things that inspired me ( Read more... ) -
i loved you so i told you, but it didn't matter much
I moved back to New Fairfield. I've been here for about 2 weeks, and things are...weird. Fine I guess, but weird. Nate came to visit for a few days, then we both stayed at Adrienne and James' for a few days, which was nice but Nate is really depressed and really needs help. Luckily, with my urging, he started a new therapist and is probably going ( Read more... )